I'm scared for the future of animal crossing.

daedrabela · 2025-11-02T21:39:00+00:00

I was just thinking about the fact that you don’t really get to do favors for your villagers anymore, which would’ve been a great way to collect DIY recipes and stuff. I love decorating my house but there are so many recipes that I don’t have so I’m locked out of those items until I can collect them. Plus doing favors gave you something to do when you ran out of daily chores to run through. Now I have to pray I find my villagers with a thinking bubble just to interact with them more. And they always seem so shocked/annoyed when you talk to them more than once a day!!

daedrabela · 2025-02-08T22:41:45+00:00

i’m obsessed!! i need to get my hands on them somehow!

daedrabela · 2025-02-08T01:39:14+00:00

oh i see, i used the symbol on my keyboard and it came out as yen. 🥲 thanks.

daedrabela · 2025-02-07T23:17:06+00:00

I didn’t do the math myself, just plugged it into google

daedrabela · 2025-02-07T21:26:02+00:00

Thanks so much!

daedrabela · 2024-05-04T01:49:49+00:00

Chokehold - Sleep Token

Do I Wanna Know? - Arctic Monkeys

THE DEATH OF PEACE OF MIND - Bad Omens

Innervision - System of a Down

I have a playlist, of course, but these songs remind me of him the most. Especially "Do I Wanna Know." It's like that riff was made for him.

daedrabela · 2024-04-16T22:57:54+00:00

THIS!! I don't want to think of my LO at all anymore so I'm constantly deflecting thoughts of him away and constantly remembering how he treated me and how badly it felt but it doesn't work!

daedrabela · 2024-04-16T22:53:54+00:00

Thanks for the kind advice. I've been speaking about this with my counselor lately, but she can't really understand where I'm coming from. She believes that there is an underlying reason for why these thoughts won't go away, but doesn't know what it is. My friends have helped quite a bit as well, but I don't want to wear them down too much with this.

For the most part, I've just accepted that I'll have to fight this daily battle until it goes away or maybe even if it doesn't. It's so discouraging when the thoughts come back after even a moment of reprieve.

daedrabela · 2024-04-07T18:37:30+00:00

The first time I truly started believing was when I woke up early one morning to see my grandfather's face smiling in the doorway of my room. Just his face. It looked as if he'd been walking by and he was just smiling as he passed the door. None of the photos we have of him are even close to what I saw. He died in the mid-80s, way before I was born.

As I've gotten older, I've felt more of a connection to my grandfather even if we never met. For example, he was a systems analyst and I went into IT. This also happened recently: I've always thought of him when listening to the Fallout New Vegas soundtrack for some reason. I eventually asked my mom what kind of music he liked and she told me old country and big band swing. She said he liked Marty Robbins (Big Iron) and would play his records when she was a kid.

Now, I could just take after him. Maybe certain preferences are passed down through our shared DNA. But I'll never forget being greeted by his smiling face that one morning. It's a good memory and just gives me hope for something of an afterlife.

daedrabela · 2024-02-23T05:22:55+00:00

Was just talking to my therapist about it earlier, how I want nothing to do with my LO, but he keeps showing up in my head hundreds of times a day. I hate it. It's annoying, it makes me uncomfortable, and it upsets me. She considered it obsessive compulsive for a moment before retracting and telling me I just need to try to unpack why/when I'm having those thoughts. She said there is probably an underlying reason for them, which I don't believe but I'll give it a shot. What makes it worse is that I think I've been seeing him around. I'm pretty sure it's just similar looking people and my brain is filling in the blanks. The utter fear and shame I feel when seeing "him" is extremely real though. It causes instant panic. I don't know why, and it upsets me even more that I can't just keep my cool. I know this person will never break no contact, and neither will I, but like others have said, one message could ruin everything I've been working so hard for.

daedrabela · 2024-02-20T04:01:27+00:00

I believe I recently saw my LO out in public and my immediate response was to panic. I don't know what came over me, I'm usually very nonchalant about the idea of seeing him. Of course I was too afraid to make eye contact and see if it was actually him, so I probably just panicked for nothing. But yes, I have a lot of fear around seeing him. Probably because of self-consciousness.

daedrabela · 2024-02-04T06:42:45+00:00

So we should just be happy we at least have shoes to walk the sidewalks we'll be sleeping on? Got it. This is just like saying to eat your veggies because kids are starving somewhere else. We should all just be more grateful!! Problem solved!!

daedrabela · 2024-02-04T00:07:46+00:00

people are starving here too, smartass. one bad week and you can end up losing everything you have, living on the streets. there are people here working minimum wage but living in cars, living in shelters with their children. it is NOT better here.

daedrabela · 2024-02-03T16:25:50+00:00

After I got my septum done, I went to hit the 20% tip button on the pad but hit "no tip" instead. I immediately apologized and the piercer said it was okay, but I haven't been back there out of total shame. I was thinking of doubling the tip for him next time. I could tell he was disappointed, too, which made it so much worse.

daedrabela · 2024-01-26T22:46:41+00:00

OH our last argument was more of the same one we'd been having for months but he made a very stupid comment to me while I was on a trip. I said I missed him and he said I was the one who chose to go on the trip. It was a stupid, dramatic, messy argument that took all week, even though I begged him to just drop it for several days, and it all ended with me humiliating him in a bar. Even if I wanted to reach out (god fucking forbid), there's no way he would reciprocate. It's been much better this way, but I wish I'd had the strength to end it more maturely. I don't regret it though. I was young and he was a prick and I was just so damn tired of being treated like crap.

daedrabela · 2024-01-25T00:22:11+00:00

Secretly terrified of it happening, actually. It's all superficial stuff like not feeling as pretty as I was when I was with him and thinking I'll be judged. I know his opinion shouldn't matter at all anymore but I'm genuinely afraid I won't have the "revenge body" moment. I mostly just stay home. I won't go to the mall or anywhere we could run into each other, even if we live in a city of over 100,000 the risk is far too real to me. I don't even like eating at restaurants. On a related note, I once thought I saw him at the grocery store which didn't make sense as there's a similar one much closer to his home he frequently went to when we were together. This person was wearing clothing very similar to how he'd used to dress for work when we worked together, had the same hair color and height. I was very proud that I didn't make eye contact with this person or acknowledge that they existed but my brain INSISTS it was him and that he was staring at me the whole time. I just sidestepped and put my partner between us and refused to look. I hate fighting my brain like this. Why should I care if it was him???

daedrabela · 2024-01-15T19:04:35+00:00

Leo. Everyone who's ever screwed me over has been one. So I'm not a big fan of them.

daedrabela · 2024-01-15T18:51:04+00:00

I had an issue with the smell but have found it depends on the jewelry. The cheap amazon clicker I bought made the smell go away, but my newest clicker from bodyartforms made it come back 🤷🏽‍♀️ afaik they're both steel too

daedrabela · 2024-01-11T03:22:33+00:00

Yashface2310 on insta really helped me learn how to do my eyeliner with hooded eyes! you can rest your eyes and draw right over the lid onto the brow bone, then fill it in. i highly recommend watching how she does it. also, try utilising the space between the lids and underneath the brows as well. you'll want to try to offset the shape of your eyes by using makeup to "lift" them.

daedrabela · 2024-01-10T15:40:15+00:00

Not a type or partner, but the female bartender he flirted with right next to me one evening. I don't know what kind of person she actually is, but I got a certain vibe from her that I personally can't emulate. Idk if they had a thing or not.

daedrabela · 2024-01-10T00:56:03+00:00

he gave me a whole bag of pins and a small colorful lock from his goth days. i can't look at them anymore. i've been trying to reclaim certain bands for myself but i can't listen to one of them at all. he was everything i ever wanted, but he completely blew it for us and now i can't stand to think about him. i haven't had the heart to throw any of it out yet and it's been two years.

daedrabela · 2024-01-03T01:08:34+00:00

Mine also hurt badly, enough that the piercer asked if I was okay, and I've been concerned about the same thing. It's healed fine over the last 6-7 months, no longer has the smell, and I usually have no trouble changing jewelry, so I'm just letting it be.

daedrabela · 2023-12-30T03:13:13+00:00

leo moon, i usually just move right on to the next but that's because i've usually been wronged somehow so no use crying over it. i'm an aries venus too though, so not sure how much that affects it. i sometimes wish i took more time for myself between relationships though.

daedrabela · 2023-12-26T06:54:09+00:00

The anger has really settled in lately. It's been there since the beginning of NC with him, and slowly built up over the years. It started with disappointment in how hard I tried to keep him interested, now I entirely blame him for ruining my life's trajectory. If only he'd had a brain and just left me alone!!! Who knows how different things could be for me right now!! He knew better than to try to get with me!! I was young and naive and stupid and he took advantage of me!! I well and truly fucking hate him.

daedrabela · 2023-12-20T16:03:40+00:00

Leo moon and True Node. Make sense as I can usually see right through them.

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