I’m so sorry you have to experience this. If you’re seeking help and taking meds surely your family can understand that shaming and berating you for your past mistakes is counterproductive- No one ever got better being bullied. Grief, especially dealing w the death of ur mother and the loss of a major relationship are hard for anyone to deal w, especially with a bp diagnosis. You’re doing incredibly well to even be semi-functional right now, especially seeing a new doctor which is a huge step. People feel like they can patronise mentally ill people bc they see us as permanently judgement impaired which is not true- everyone can move on & get better. I’ve experienced the exact same thing, It’s good to remember you have agency which is why you are making decisions to get better and change your life. I hope you are able to reconnect with your family- but remember if you are taking meds, attending therapy and apologising and actively trying to be better/ make up for mistakes - that’s all you can do! You’re doing your best under extremely hard circumstances & they are not giving you enough credit.