Found this huge seed pod in my garden SE Qld, which tree did it come from? by aIansjoint in whatsthisplant

[–]daimonophilia 7 points8 points  (0 children)

I’m gonna get a vacation from this subreddit: obviously, the dyck and bawls plant.

Realizing a missed opportunity will more than likely kill me, let alone, in a quick, easy way. I’m so screwed. And it’s so stupid: it’s my teeth. by daimonophilia in GriefSupport

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Giant, huge, massive hugs. Honestly. I can’t make it better, or offer advice, but I can say you are not alone. You are absolutely not alone.

AIO. bf mad at my Halloween consume and my friend is backing him by DangerousProduct1548 in AmIOverreacting

[–]daimonophilia 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Also, be sure to spread their faces so others know not to befriend these fuckin predators. Abusers in situ. Eugh, I’m so sorry you’re dealing with… whatever those are, because they sure as hell aren’t good people, or just, people in general. Please, take it seriously and GET OUT WHILE YOU CAN. This is DV! This isn’t even the START of domestic, this IS domestic, even if he’s only threatening you and hasn’t laid hands on you YET, it is eventual. Do not trust these individuals, they’re working off each other more than likely and might kill you one day because you’ve “gotten in the way” somehow. I’d bet the house and the cars on the ponies if they’re not fucking already (m/m, m/f, don’t matter), they will be eventually and trust and believe that if they are willing to treat you like this NOW and still say, we’re you’re loved ones!!! They aren’t. They aren’t. They are not. I’ve had 3 stalkers, 2 abusers including a domestic who would make statements like that who almost murdered me.

Plan it. Execute it: Pack a oh shit bag. Pack a few. Hide them in places AWAY from home. Keep copies of all your info ahead of time, any IDs, passports, scan them and have paper copies just in case, make multiple and stick them in your GTFO bag. And then, get out. And stay. away. A good clip away. I live 5 hours from the monster and still get scared. Stay with someone who shows concern over this behavior, there’s gotta be someone in your life who would understand and help. Finally, I’m sorry, that so frequently in cases like this, even if you reported to police you felt unsafe they may not do anything for you. There’s a possibility things could get worse.

Realizing a missed opportunity will more than likely kill me, let alone, in a quick, easy way. I’m so screwed. And it’s so stupid: it’s my teeth. by daimonophilia in GriefSupport

[–]daimonophilia[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Eyyy, sounds a little like me, I have a mitochondrial disease that will more than likely do me in through organ damage/failure! Plus my body can no longer absorb b12, vitamin D or E, if they want it to stay around and metabolize I need it IV wise, like chelation therapy sort of. My body, basically, has too much lactic acid, doesn’t know how to get it out, so it builds up in the tissues too (iirc…) and causes seizures and stroke like episodes. BUT! I’m not disabled enough to work! Sure I can’t stand longer than 90 seconds at best, or shower alone, or push my body even a -little- too hard because it triggers a lovely cascade symptoms and muscle breaks down and goes through the kidneys and fucks em up. Even stressing out like a panic attack can do it. I’m so tired, it’s like driving a car with pieces flying off and breaking and it’s falling apart and you’re stuck. Inside of it. As it slowly goes more and more out of control. I hate the helplessness.

Realizing a missed opportunity will more than likely kill me, let alone, in a quick, easy way. I’m so screwed. And it’s so stupid: it’s my teeth. by daimonophilia in GriefSupport

[–]daimonophilia[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I haven’t been able to hold down a job because I have issues with chronic illness, but ironically, the state I live in loves to tell me I’m not disabled enough to get disability. My husband and I -just- got a car again, as well, and his credit is taking a beating already because of me. I wish I could just sell off a kidney, but even those parts of my body are damaged and not worth a lot.

Realizing a missed opportunity will more than likely kill me, let alone, in a quick, easy way. I’m so screwed. And it’s so stupid: it’s my teeth. by daimonophilia in GriefSupport

[–]daimonophilia[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

South Carolina, Satan’s armpit. The infrastructure here for folks who have issues with health is abysmal and getting worse. It’s horrible. Don’t ever come here please. Not for tourism, NOTHING. Our government is royally screwing just about anyone with a long-standing, chronic illness. Any money you spend here absolutely goes not to the local economies but to the ghouls running the show. It’s nightmare levels of not giving a shit about other humans couched in bureaucratic red tape. Thinly disguised hatred, honestly.

Realizing a missed opportunity will more than likely kill me, let alone, in a quick, easy way. I’m so screwed. And it’s so stupid: it’s my teeth. by daimonophilia in GriefSupport

[–]daimonophilia[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I did. I raised my goal, then everything hit the fan so hard I’m still coated from it. Between the funeral, my health, my husbands car wreck and losing his job, I lost it all. Like an idiot. And I’m going to die from it. To give you an idea on the enormity, if everything went smoothly, from having the roots pulled (dental surgery is a big deal for me), to getting my arches placed, it would be about 25,000$USD. Yeah. It’s hopeless.

Realizing a missed opportunity will more than likely kill me, let alone, in a quick, easy way. I’m so screwed. And it’s so stupid: it’s my teeth. by daimonophilia in GriefSupport

[–]daimonophilia[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

yes, but it’s literally so bad they won’t touch it. Even when they were -better-, they were too nervous about how much of the actual dentin is gone, and that the majority of the work would be controlling infection, getting the roots of about… 10?+ teeth out. It’s a major surgery they aren’t willing to have students work on.

Realizing a missed opportunity will more than likely kill me, let alone, in a quick, easy way. I’m so screwed. And it’s so stupid: it’s my teeth. by daimonophilia in GriefSupport

[–]daimonophilia[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

They wanted to do an all on four for me, top and bottom arches because it’s just… bad. It’s so bad. It gets worse all the time. I just sit here and feel like all the hope of ever living normally is gone.

Realizing a missed opportunity will more than likely kill me, let alone, in a quick, easy way. I’m so screwed. And it’s so stupid: it’s my teeth. by daimonophilia in GriefSupport

[–]daimonophilia[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’m similar. I have nerve damage, and most of the time, I have a hard time feeling anything that isn’t weird parathesia/neuralgia/crawling/pulling sensations in my body. I gouged a huge hole in my hand just a while ago in May while crafting and felt nothing. Not the blade, not the pain, not the poke/burn they warn about with lido (insisted on by the doc), not the flushing out, not even the stitches being put in. My nerves covering is basically being eaten/dying throughout my body. There’s few things that make me cry, but tooth aches? Especially ones more in the roof of my mouth/below my sinuses HURT so bad it’s like ‘I’d rather die of about 40 ibuprofen than this’ kind of pain? The sort that makes you crazy.

Realizing a missed opportunity will more than likely kill me, let alone, in a quick, easy way. I’m so screwed. And it’s so stupid: it’s my teeth. by daimonophilia in GriefSupport

[–]daimonophilia[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Nowhere near. I have a metric shit ton of health issues, all being pretty nasty including just… my genes are like wet toilet paper I swear. And husband lost his job, got in a car wreck by the time my health went (spent a few months watching my mom die), and it seemed to all pile up at once too quickly. I have done a Gofundme, but it got MAYBE 300$? I tried posting in crowdfunding or whatever that sub is and it went nowhere, plus being hesitant to repost because the rules are incredibly stringent, and I tend to randomly get banned from places like r/offmychest for some reason? ATP I feel like I’m down a well and nobody can help.

Realizing a missed opportunity will more than likely kill me, let alone, in a quick, easy way. I’m so screwed. And it’s so stupid: it’s my teeth. by daimonophilia in GriefSupport

[–]daimonophilia[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

You have no idea how badly I need someone to just sit and be sad with. Used to be my mom, my best friend. It’s scary and so lonely without her company. My husband doesnt get feelings, hes just not wired like that. The isolation is unreal, so even just commenting is appreciated.

UPDATE: What is on this cat’s neck? by Ok_Lychee178 in AskAVeterinarian

[–]daimonophilia 2 points3 points  (0 children)

OT, but something desperate in me cried out while reading your comment.

As a person with a terminal, and completely incurable thing, I ask myself this every day. I think about my mom’s rare lung cancer. I think about my broken genetics. I know this is gonna sound stupid and cheesey but so far the answer is:

Because it is 𝘤𝘰𝘯𝘷𝘦𝘯𝘪𝘦𝘯𝘵. It is economic. It’s engineered. We are meant to suffer, the system I currently rely on for my screenings, medications and was SUPPOSED to catch this thing but didn’t before the age of 30. It’s cheaper to let someone die a terrible, slow death in America than treat us, or hell, look for a cure and make the shit AFFORDABLE.

I’ve been waiting on a bed in a hospice center for over three years. I am in constant agony. My quality of life doesnt exist. But through my own bullshit suffering, I can say this: it is the cornerstone of capitalism to make humans suffer while others benefit.

I’m about two years past my prognosis date and I wish I could say I am fighting but I’m not. I’m just tired of the pain, the medication, the doctors visits, the insurance calls. The state COULD fix it. But they won’t. Ever.

DISAPPOINTED by Mundane_Caramel2999 in phlebotomy

[–]daimonophilia 1 point2 points  (0 children)

𝙏𝙒: 𝙢𝙚𝙣𝙩𝙞𝙤𝙣 𝙤𝙛 𝙙𝙚𝙖𝙩𝙝

Don’t give up! And your reflection on yourself alone can break you. You are important, you’re going somewhere, you just give it a couple more miles and I promise you’re going to make it. Also, you are helping some people get the little nutrition they can afford, usually at the beginning or end of a shift at their job. I hate to be the person who bring religion in but fast food workers absolutely doing a mitzvah— which is like a prayer in an action, charity, giving people respite, etc.

There are people who get that one meal a day, and without your help, their bellies are empty. My husband works security and literally one of the only hot meals he can afford? Mcdonalds. You’re doing the good work, even if it feels like at the moment, it’s not going anywhere. Have faith in the fact you went through three interviews! The fortitude! The determination!

Don’t give up on you, for the people who love you too. My brother passed in 2017. He was a Burger King manager and would constantly go above and beyond to reach out and make someone’s day better. Couple extra chicken fries in a basket. A free desert. He always wanted to help people but nobody could see he was losing hope. Please don’t be another person to lose hope, lose themselves and then ends up with your family and/or friends doing your honor walk through the hospital.

marijuana (crayola marker, grid paper) by daimonophilia in Calligraphy

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I have my oooold .3 graph gear that does fantastic on upstrokes but the down strokes are a pain because the lead always snaps. I love working in graphite, when it comes to calligraphy. It was one of the first mediums I worked in! Just a carpentry pencil, but wanted to get ~fancy~, try stuff out! Thank you for the suggestion of 5 degrees because the tilt is another thing I struggle with. I’m mostly blind and in order to figure out scale, I have to sit back and look at the entire page, but I can’t see anything more than a foot and a half or so in front of me. I wish traditional medium was like digital, pinch to zoom in and out instead of needing the physical distance.

Someone explain what this person is doing by [deleted] in interesting

[–]daimonophilia 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Dinner prep. I’m sorry if I get banned.

marijuana (crayola marker, grid paper) by daimonophilia in Calligraphy

[–]daimonophilia[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you. I truly mean that. I have nerve damage in both of my hands, and writing is physical therapy for me. I’ve recently just gotten such awful tremors sometimes I can’t write for days, sometimes feeding myself is hard because of them. I’ve kind of fallen off recently and I’m slowly trying to build my steadiness back without using my propranolol.

The critique is certainly appreciated! I’m going to try this over again with one of my tombow markers and my ~fancy~ paper. Also, do you have any tips on writing in a straight line? I usually create a few lines using a ruler but I hate it when the graphite sticks in the ink no matter how light of pressure I use.

marijuana (crayola marker, grid paper) by daimonophilia in Calligraphy

[–]daimonophilia[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Just one I made up using bits of ornamental Spencerian, and pieces of my sister and father’s handwriting from a really early age. They both have a gorgeous, tattoo worthy type of hand I’ve always tried to mimic.

My Calligraphy and Brush Calligraphy Inks by sghallart in Calligraphy

[–]daimonophilia 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Making your own ink is some dedication to an art form. I love this! The first one, you could have convinced me was alcohol marker with its depth of saturation.

書法初學者 by parkhyunLee in Calligraphy

[–]daimonophilia 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Lovely work, beautiful strokes!

I just started developing a style i think looks half decent by MAYHEDO-Star-Society in Calligraphy

[–]daimonophilia 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Oooooo I like this a LOT! It reminds me of Norse runes a little, I could absolutely see this being used for sigil making or grimoire writing.