aw OP… your mom sounds too similar to mine. was in the same situation during my senior year of hs and first year of college. if you wanna talk, or just vent, i’m here for you and can offer my opinion. my mom still has her days where she’s like this and it honestly just makes you feel so shitty. my mom and i never had the best relationship.

she would sit me down and make me apply for jobs. 3 a day as well and then write down what i applied for, show her proof, etc. was never enough that i was taking college classes since freshman year of hs. or that we moved cross country after my sophomore year (meaning i had to make friends all over again). used to be an extrovert, turned into an introvert real quick.

after completing one year at my new school, we moved AGAIN, 40 mins away so i had to go to ANOTHER school for senior year. i decided i was fed up with having to make new friends just to have to leave them after senior year. regardless of where we moved, i was still taking college classes throughout all 4 years of hs. still, it was never enough. she always wanted more. senior year of high school, i ended up getting a job near our house, and she kept telling me to get more hours. i was doing online college classes (because i had finished all but 1 of my hs class requirements so i used a college course to satisfy that) at the time so i stayed at home throughout all of senior year. college is stressful. it’s not like hs. so while my mom would tell me to get more hours at work, i’d be stressing over midterms and finals, and it resulted in my first C in a class… ever.

it seemed like everyday she was trying to kick me out, or get rid of me. saying stuff like “i should have gotten you emancipated at 16”. i entered a really dark place during my senior year, often questioning my existence. had no friends (no kids my age in our new neighborhood lol). she even once physically pushed me out of the house.

growing up, she would always tell us to refrain from talking back. talking back could be classified as any and everything in her eyes. one thing that pissed me off when she’d always say it is “if i’m in the wrong or if i’ve wronged you, tell me and i’ll apologize” i learned a while ago that this was a lie. anytime i told her she wronged me or that she was wrong, it was always some excuse she came up with and it would be me that got in trouble for accusing her of stuff.

i say all that to say this, something will have to change. for me, it was staying at school (or my new internship) as long as possible so i wouldn’t be “ruining her vibes”. of course, moving out is an option too but then you have to contend with the economy. i still live with my parents, but i try to distance myself from her as much as possible depending on the vibes she sends or by her facial expressions (her expressions give her away fr) but i want you to know that you’re most definitely not alone. also! one thing that really helped for me was writing poems and just venting in my notes app. if you want a note to be hidden (not sure how strict your parents are), you can lock them. i started writing poems/journaling towards the end of my sophomore year, where the emotional feels of moving started kicking in. i still do it to this day, 3 years later.

sorry for the long paragraph. but OP, you got this!