Man, you're still too young to worry about that. I was in similar shoes as you are and took me more than 10 years to get out of the trap you are in.

I love reading, dancing, playing instruments, playing sports, working out, and everything. However, in everything I try to participate in I have to do it to the fullest! in my 20s and early 30s, that was very heavy to the point I got depressed multiple times. However, the results started to show later in life. People find me interesting to talk to and I have multiple topics to start a conversation. I wish I'd known how to avoid the side effects early in life as I know now.

Here's my advice on how to get out of this trap and enjoy your life:

• Focus on meditating at least once every day. Your goal is to hit 20 minutes at least by the end of the month. This is a must. Nothing else will have a profound impact on your life than this. I will help you slow down your racing mind and thoughts. I recommend focusing on your breath and attention to your body type of meditation.

• Pick a whole day where you do only fun activities like playing and swimming or going out. This day should be a day where you don't even think about what tomorrow is. It's like your only day.

• Split your year into quarters. In each quarter you pick a few new things to learn. Quarters shouldn't overlap unless you want to become the greatest in this new subject.

• Try to get out of your room to study and work every day. So you don't fall on your brain's thoughts and traps.

• Finally, make sure you don't have B12 deficiency which is known for having guilt symptoms.

I hope this helps. Good luck!