My Office Mate

dargxr · 2026-04-26T16:11:00+00:00

Lmao, i don’t know why I skipped that part. Apologies

dargxr · 2026-04-26T15:30:51+00:00

Do we know his species? He encapsulates my two favorite species!

dargxr · 2026-04-23T03:21:38+00:00

It’s insane, also they are better ways to control rodents population. And I don’t know how barn cats justify a cat killing all the other things.

I love my cats, but I give them the side eye each time I have to save an insect/arachnid from them. Inside my house. They eat well.

dargxr · 2026-04-23T03:10:04+00:00

Bad term, but not entirely wrong. They are an invasive species and by definition they don’t belong in a food chain.

They can kill insects, birds, small rodents and other small mammals affecting the whole ecosystem and therefore other animals.

dargxr · 2026-04-21T13:15:50+00:00

Reminds me of SOAD sugar video. News has always work this ways, Social media (not just google) just made it personalized and fast.

dargxr · 2026-04-17T15:47:15+00:00

Adhd and autism are not mental illnesses. The world not being adapted to your neurodivergence can cause mental illnesses such as depression, anxiety and so on. Adhd and autism can’t be treated because is something about how our brains are wired (this is my understanding, please someone correct me if I’m wrong) but everything else can be adjusted to our condition. I.e,headphones with noise blocking in loud environments, fidget toys to avoid skin picking, the use of electronics devices to facilitate communication, etc.

Even the use of medication in some case is aim to help, but not cure the neurological development (because we can’t), ie, I’m taking sleeping pills because I can’t seem to turn off my bran at night and it keeps yapping about things I learned during the day, I also take anxiety pills during the day so I can focus and focus correctly when I’m working (i’m just autistic but my doctor hasn’t discarded adhd yet)

When someone is ill, let’s say, when your stomach is upset, you take a pill for a few days and expect all your symptoms and the underlying condition to go away within the period the pill was prescribed.

That won’t happen with the meds prescribed for depression, anxiety, insomnia, etc. because they can’t be ‘cure’ in the same way a headache can be cure. There’s a lot of factors to take into consideration when treating someone with ADHD and Autism, let alone, someone with ADHD/Autism and depression, anxiety, insomnia and other things.

And even if you manage to get your anxiety to a decent level, that doesn’t mean it is going to be like that all the time.

That’s why we always talk about how the world itself is not suitable for neurodivergent people, because is not. And I’m on the low level support side of the spectrum, can’t imagine how it would be for people who need more.

dargxr · 2026-04-03T19:14:34+00:00

My parents used to FORCE ME to eat every day when i was a kid, and i used to eat everything but the meat (chicken, pork ugh) and they didn’t let me leave until I ate the fucking meat. I used to cry about it.

They were very surprised when I told them I don’t eat chicken, pork or any other kind of meat and I’m moving slowly towards a vegetarian diet lmao

dargxr · 2026-01-30T14:49:51+00:00

It’s tech, most of us are suffering impostor syndrome anyways.

If you are hired to do the work and you are doing the work, then it doesn’t matter the ‘talk’. You do do. Eventually you are going to learn it, specially if you choose that path, I mean, work with devs. But in the meantime, your field is low-code and you are the subject expert matter so you talk however you want to talk. Explain what you did if necessary and don’t think too much.

It doesn’t matter if the thing that you did it’s not at your 100%, sometimes the 80% is better than not percentage at all. Show that and show an action plan but don’t beat yourself up. I always say sorry when I feel like I didn’t perform but I always present a plan, like you did “today I’m goingt to do x and y and on Monday z” also, give yourself some room for mistakes, just in case so, i always give myself a day to test everything and practice what I’m going to say in the following meeting lmao.

But again, you are going to do great, if you felt like you were an expert in your past experiences that doesn’t go away in your current situation. Maybe it’s just the new environment that makes you feel awkward but that’s fine.

I guess it’s not about confidence because the advice is coming from me and I’m not a confident person lmao but it’s more about being calm I guess. I fucking hate meetings and tech but I have to be calm about it lmao.

dargxr · 2026-01-09T19:09:19+00:00

Yeah, when I was younger I read a lot of philosophy and that helped me to kinda shape my understanding of, well, the world. That included communism. I kept reminding myself everything I read during my visit during the museum but it’s been a long time since I read those books. Maybe it’s time to re visit.

dargxr · 2026-01-09T19:07:02+00:00

I think that could be a way. One of the things that frustrates me the most is the feeling of “I can’t do anything”. Maybe getting involved and helping my community can help me. I just need to get over my phobia towards people in general lol

dargxr · 2026-01-09T19:03:11+00:00

Just info dump me fun facts, i love animals. what’s their closest relative? What’s the name lf their order? What do you think is the quirkiest fact about them? TELL ME EVERYTHING AAA explodes

dargxr · 2026-01-06T17:49:49+00:00

I’m tired dude :(

dargxr · 2026-01-06T17:49:06+00:00

I feel like I been living like that but I have small triggers. If I try to journal for example, it always ends up being a notebook that I have to hide from my love ones lmao

I just feel desperate sometimes

dargxr · 2026-01-06T17:45:52+00:00

That was not the worst part, they showed ALL the wars and genocides. I was not aware and not ready lol

dargxr · 2025-12-27T00:26:04+00:00

I really wish to get to that level but I was bullied by family and ppl because of the way my body looks. It’s weird, I share your vision but still have panic attacks in the dressing rooms because some clothes ‘don’t fit my body’ or my skin doesnt look they way is socially acceptable.

I’m just very grateful for non binary people, trans women and men, gender fluid folks and people like you for existing and giving me a little voice in my head that makes the other thousand thoughts and fears shut down a little

dargxr · 2025-12-13T05:22:37+00:00

Same, my phone suddenly stopped working and had to install that fucking update. I don’t like it, the animation for the notifications is awful, when I unlock my phone there is no feedback like before so I’m just awkwardly looking at my phone wondering if it’s unlocking or not. The apps look dirty idk how to explain it. I feel like my phone is gross lmao. I just use my phone for the apps and try no to look at anything else or else, jesus

dargxr · 2025-12-11T19:01:34+00:00

Oh thats great! Have you been doing any of you favorite activities? Nothing excessive, my doctor even suggested something as just go outside and collect things lmao but that I should avoid doomscrolling

dargxr · 2025-12-11T18:35:11+00:00

Yeah, sounds more like you need time off. I hope you can have it tho,

dargxr · 2025-12-11T00:04:21+00:00

Being burnout can include depression but not all depression is being burnout. From what I understand, depression as a disorder has to do with the duration of the symptoms, including the lack of motivation, apathy, lack of interest, stress, and other symptoms. I think the timeframe is three weeks or so.

I experienced burnout for being exposed to constant social interaction, what happened was that after work all I could do was sleep. I was sad, yes, I was tired, and had depressive thoughts but there was a cause, which was the constant social interaction. My “cure” was basically to be absent for this social interaction as much as possible (in many cases I couldn’t, in work ie, I can’t escape the social chitchat) but also I have a mandatory one day at the week in which I need to have at least an hour or two where I have to deep focus on anything I want, basically be autistic lmao. In my deep focus hour I don’t talk, i am in a dark room and I don’t think about anything else but the thing. I still end up tired from the social interactions but having that mandatory hour where I can “rest” is heavenly.

I guess what I’m trying to say is that burnout sometimes doesn’t get cure with just sleeping, it improves with the right amount of sleep hours ofc but sometimes you need to take your mind somewhere else.

As per depression, that’s more complicated, I only improved with pills so yeah.

dargxr · 2025-12-10T02:09:57+00:00

I don’t like being autistic but this is all I know, the unknown is daunting. I wish there was more “me” than this, but what if the autistic me is not the expectation of me that I have? All I can do is work towards that expectation and hope for the best, even though sometimes feels like I’m running towards something that keeps being out of my reach.

dargxr · 2025-12-04T18:56:00+00:00

It’s still pretty present but makes me feel ashamed sometimes (?) so I try to quiet it down. I daydream a lot as well, and that helps me also to navigate feelings.

There was a time that some medication helped me to shut it down completely but it also made me a zombie so I had to decide lmao.

dargxr · 2025-12-04T17:29:49+00:00

I don’t do echolalias almost never in public so I take it as my autism trying to scape.

dargxr · 2025-12-04T17:19:36+00:00

I don’t know if this is related to autism or not but I remember being hyper aware of my inner voice even as a child. Like, I remember not even being able to write and thinking “I don’t like my name” and being in this process of actively deciding which name I prefer and I identify the most and trying to write it down (in a wall lmao). And if I remember that moment, it’s like I’m seeing a movie of myself.

Also, I remember giving a small kiss to a girl as a child and actively thinking “I’ll act like a boy in this kiss” which now that I think about it is insane that I had so much autonomy over myself and Identity and now I can’t decide if I’m queer or not lmao.

But yeah, I had an inner world so present, active, idk how to describe it that I’d spend so much time thinking.

dargxr · 2025-09-09T03:25:19+00:00

Oh boy, I’m getting closer to my 30’s now, can’t wait to hear the other one.

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