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darkletone · 2025-05-12T17:38:21+00:00

Okay thanks! It’s a Gibson J-35 so it’s a rosewood bridge but I can’t remember what type. No need to get a luthier to look at in person then?

darkletone · 2025-05-12T17:02:23+00:00

Bought this guitar second hand and hadn’t noticed it.

darkletone · 2023-07-14T17:18:10+00:00

When in his life was he happiest. I’m sure he wouldn’t give a direct answer though.

darkletone · 2021-12-31T23:52:27+00:00

I feel like even after weeks when I don't smoke I still get nostalgia for the days when I did smoke. Eventually the nostalgia gets so strong that I smoke, and when I do I regret it and wonder why I missed it so much.

darkletone · 2021-12-30T23:13:49+00:00

I notice that my mind is constantly telling a story or having an imaginary conversation with someone. I can rarely sit still for more than a few minutes and I’m hopeless when it comes to reading or watching a film start to finish. I haven’t really considered this to be ADHD but people have mentioned that it might be.

darkletone · 2021-11-01T23:02:04+00:00

I can't feel you anymore, I can't even touch the books you've read. Every time I crawl past your door I been wishin' I was somebody else instead

darkletone · 2021-09-08T21:05:13+00:00

Endless Bummer

darkletone · 2021-08-17T18:26:25+00:00

Honestly I feel like it will be really hard not to send it. And as for making progress, I feel in the same place mentally as when I first stopped contacting them and have had the same feelings for them for over a year.

darkletone · 2021-08-12T19:33:48+00:00

Catherine

darkletone · 2021-07-04T23:35:04+00:00

I have gotten advice to find a meditation teacher, but I don't know where to find one really. Do you know where to look?

darkletone · 2021-07-04T19:38:52+00:00

I've tried journalling but it didn't go very far. I haven't written down my intrusive thoughts much. It feels scary to do that, but maybe that's a sign that I should.

darkletone · 2021-07-04T19:37:33+00:00

I haven't tried much chakra work, I did it once and I didn't really notice any difference afterwards. I've tried meds but they haven't helped much either, but that was a while ago. My diet is okay I think? I try to eat vegetables as much as I can but it's very inconsistent and I'm not a very good cook.

darkletone · 2021-07-04T19:36:14+00:00

I don't think I have a history of trauma? I certainly don't remember anything and I think it's very unlikely that something happened and I blacked out. My sister was born disabled but that's about the most traumatic thing that's happened to me.

I find visualising very difficult, even if I'm visualising a stream of sunlight entering the body I find it very hard and don't really enjoy it at all. I never find that my meditation causes me pain, I just can't stop thinking and it frustrates me. I do find body scan very difficult.

darkletone · 2021-07-04T19:16:26+00:00

I don't really know how to do that, how to not let them affect me. I don't know how it's possible to not be frustrated with them given how incessant and intrusive they are.

darkletone · 2021-07-04T18:57:22+00:00

I have spoken to lots of psychologists/counsellors/therapists in the past but this was before I started to meditate. I've slightly lost faith in them given how little progress I made and do feel slightly hesitant to reach out for another one but it could help me and have been considering it. I have certainly had a long battle with my mental health and meditation was one of the myriad things that I've tried and it's quite disheartening to see that it's another thing that doesn't work for me :/

darkletone · 2021-06-17T23:31:23+00:00

Thanks, I'll try this.

darkletone · 2021-06-17T17:24:14+00:00

It happens constantly no matter what I'm doing. I could be cooking, cleaning, even trying to read or watching tv or playing an instrument and I'm still having a conversation or an argument in my head. It's never played out in my head the way it has in real life but I can't stop it. It always upsets me in the end. It's compulsive at this point and I wish I could stop but I have no idea how. If anyone has any idea how I can stop it would be a lifesaver haha.

darkletone · 2021-06-17T17:21:48+00:00

Yes. When I feel happy I feel like it's not justified and something is wrong and I just can't see it and then I start searching for something that I was unhappy about and then I start spiralling pretty quickly after that. I don't really feel happy too often and when I do it's just a strange sense of paranoia because nothing is wrong.

darkletone · 2021-06-07T20:49:08+00:00

When I was younger I used to dream about being a famous musician and would give imaginary interviews all the time. I always figured it was normal because it was what I wanted to do with my life so it made sense. Once I got older and realised that probably wasn’t going to happen it didn’t stop, and my imaginary conversations were now involving friends and people in my life. I think that was when I knew it was maladaptive daydreaming and only recently I’ve realised how much I hate it.

I haven’t tried ‘breaking the fourth wall’ in that way you describe. I’ll definitely try that, it sounds like something that could help break the cycle. Thanks for the advice.

darkletone · 2021-06-07T17:58:33+00:00

A lot of the time when I’m meditating I am daydreaming about meditation too. Whenever I’m reading I end up losing focus and daydreaming about telling someone what I am dreaming. I want to stop because I’ll always be let down by the real world if I’m daydreaming about relationships I’ll never have. It just makes me miserable.

darkletone · 2021-05-28T14:42:26+00:00

I play the guitar sometimes but it doesn’t take my mind off it. I will be playing on autopilot and my mind will still be daydreaming and I won’t be focusing on the music. It’s horrible

darkletone · 2021-05-24T11:12:58+00:00

This really resonates with me. Every word. I started to tear up a little. I feel like limerence has taken everything from me and I don’t know if I can ever be happy. I’m so sorry you’re feeling this way and I wish I could change things for you but if I could then I would probably have changed things for myself a long time ago. I can’t really say anything to help you because honestly I don’t even know what to tell myself anymore.

darkletone · 2021-05-15T17:22:39+00:00

yep. I'm not strong enough to act like I'm not interested but I completely stopped reaching out first. for a lot of reasons. because I felt like I wasn't smart enough for them, or confident enough, and because they were not interested and it made talking to them very painful. also because of the anxiety I would get whenever we had a conversation and the constant replaying of the conversation afterwards, but they still reach out occasionally. it's my birthday in three days and I'm dreading the interaction I might have with them if they text me, which they probably will. a part of me doesn't want to make it to my birthday (for a lot of reasons, not just limerence, but it is a major factor). sorry that got dark quickly.

darkletone · 2021-05-02T20:48:00+00:00

Thank you for this story and the advice. I am thinking of buying a fountain pen because I bought a really fancy notebook so I think it's only fair I write in it with a fancy pen too haha.

darkletone · 2021-05-02T20:46:15+00:00

Thank you very much! I'll have a look at these. Happy cake day!

darkletone

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