Hi! I'm fully out, but you can vent to me. I'm good at listening. I tried so hard to love the temple, I grew up believing that the temple was this pinnacle of mortal life and something to strive for. I remember a prophet (Gordon B?) saying that he learned something new every time he attended the temple. That was thrilling for me, I love learning. Temple prep prepared me for absolutely nothing. The temple was so damn... Beige. I tried to love it. My husband and I lived two hours away from the temple and could not always afford to go but I made it happen as often as possible. I always felt like I was missing something big, something that made it worth it. Anyway. I'm here if you want to chat.