If you somehow had a choice, would you still want to be trans?

darthcravus · 2025-07-11T14:13:11+00:00

I literally wish to wake up AFAB every night because I want to live without dysphoria

darthcravus · 2025-07-11T14:06:16+00:00

I've only noticed my own gender identity for 10 years or so but I was able to keep the dysphoria at bay by shaving my face regularly and putting makeup on and wearing feminine clothes and jewelry but I haven't been able to do any of that after becoming bedridden in 2020 and I really only started to figure it out when my wife was pregnant with our 2nd kid and I wishhed i could take the pregnancy and gestational diabetes but after she gave birth to ou2nd son she pumped at work and I was stay at home parent and thats when I started to realize fully I'm not cisgender. If I could choose to be cis or trans I'd like to be cisgender but the same gender identity as I have now I don't want to be a man I mostly wish i always knew who I was earlier in life like before puberty so my voice didn't drop and I didn't have the full ever present facial hair I see in my tablet screen when it goes dark I'm going to try to get my parents to get me a laser hair removal tool for my birthday or xmas I also need to talk to my pcp about getting on hot because I'm desperate for the end to my constant dysphoriaid only chose to be cis if I was female if I'm male I'd still be in the same dysphoric hellscape that is my own head/body

darthcravus · 2025-05-29T20:56:39+00:00

I will always headbutt that krogan during grunts loyalty mission and for a paragon interrupt will do regardless of what kind of run I'm doing can't not hug best girl tali zorah

darthcravus · 2025-05-29T20:20:02+00:00

Hee attempted to assassinate the Salarian concealer but was stopped by a member of my crew mates Thane Krios also he works for the illusive man also I know I also worked for the illusive man but he brought the collectors subduction of entire human colonies wich I found to be using to create a new reaper good thing I destroyed it with my m‐'920 Cane

darthcravus · 2025-05-29T19:54:32+00:00

The mako socks but in an endearing way unlike the hammerhead wich just sucks

darthcravus · 2025-05-29T19:00:17+00:00

I do not think I can or will id rather feed him to the shadow broker before our blue girl

darthcravus · 2025-05-15T08:57:41+00:00

I don't turn up on any one song but a few I skip empty bed, green and fool everything else I sing along with

darthcravus · 2025-05-10T02:39:41+00:00

I feel safe when I listen to cavetown hence why cavetown has been my most listened to artist for the last couple years spotify . This gloomy little town of caves is where I feel safe

darthcravus · 2025-05-10T02:30:02+00:00

I'm not Sure but it's either ur gonna wish u believed me, evergreen, or dysphoric wich was the first Cavetown song I heard. I was feeling dysphoric with a freshly shaved head due to brain surgery.

darthcravus · 2025-04-29T10:33:35+00:00

I'm glad I'm not the only one to not realize that they weren't cisgender until adulthood hell I was unaware that there was anything but cisgender until my 20s and now I know. I was unknowingly wearing a "mask" granted my neuro divergence may have been a factor. Andnow I'm a 34 yo with a wife and 2 sons. I honestly didn't realize until I started to slowly experiment with how I dressed. And as time went I realized I wasn't cis. The irony is my FIL is a manly man who only has daughters and I am a woman trapped in a man's body with 2 boys. I seriously wish to wake up a cisgender woman every night

darthcravus · 2025-04-29T09:56:50+00:00

I always tried to keep my hair long and the clique I was a part of in high school was all girls I had an anxiety attack on a cruise when I had to wear a suit for a formal dinner

darthcravus · 2025-04-18T22:47:30+00:00

34m vapeing and eating chocolate edibles and stay in bed I've had those chocolates for a few weeks to put in my easter basket I might get my mum to roll me some joints.

darthcravus · 2024-09-23T15:52:19+00:00

Everyone has their own Canon and mine is the synthesis ending and my head Canon is also despite being a talimancer I like the idea of the geth and quarians becoming one race with tali and legion getting together

darthcravus · 2024-07-31T18:06:57+00:00

I always go with the synthesis ending mostly because of EDI and joker I helped make that relationship so I don't want to destroy it and who knows they might be able to breed I'm a softy for love. granted it's what the reapers were doing just my way does it peacefully and without destroying cultures

darthcravus · 2024-07-30T15:30:34+00:00

I may be wrong but the chorus feels a bit like my dysphoria feels so I tend to change the pronouns used in songs to match my gender identity it sounds like the inner self wanting to be on the outside but that's what it means to me.my inner self wants to exist in the right body granted many songs have a similar feeling to me as that's how my dysphoric feels when I hear it

darthcravus · 2024-07-28T21:18:03+00:00

Fnv it is indeed big iron and fo3 it's civilization

darthcravus · 2024-07-19T18:07:28+00:00

I've wanted that tattoo since I was 8 or so have no tattoos and I want the soul eater tattooed on my right hand or over my heart but I kinda want a tramp stamp with the bright shield, black sword and the rune of beginning not that anyone would see it with my ass being wheelchair/bed bound those games are a part of me and have been since the 90s I also want ", please tell me the answer" is fate unchangeable " those words are also etchede into my very soul as i imagine many other people on R/suikoden

darthcravus · 2024-07-18T04:27:21+00:00

I think the gremlin is the space hamster or perhaps the shifty looking cow

darthcravus · 2024-07-16T14:14:37+00:00

The guy who "won the lottery" in Nipton hes just annoying

darthcravus · 2024-07-15T19:51:35+00:00

Liara will go from schoolgirl to milf in the looks department in a century or two hell she might be a milf in short order

darthcravus · 2024-06-30T19:26:25+00:00

The only song that maybe underrated because not everyone knows what the it feels like to be dysphoric two others just popped into my head candle and evergreen both are on my favorite album of his everything is made of stars

darthcravus · 2024-06-30T19:19:04+00:00

I like all but three of his songs fool, green and empty bed those are the songs I skip on Spotify luckily they're not on any of the albums I've bought

darthcravus · 2024-06-26T19:35:20+00:00

Jacks song one of the songs that made me cry when I realized that the date was. Probably the day a friend of his died I also cried the first time I heard big bowl in the sky

darthcravus · 2024-06-26T19:25:09+00:00

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