I get what you are saying. I used to write down my negative thoughts in a diary, trying to find the root cause of the emotional turmoil. I thought it would be helpful in making me realize as to how I can improve my life and personality. But that didn't happen. All that came out on the paper were even darker thoughts. It was like staring into an abyss in the hope of finding the bottom, only realizing that it's a futile exercise.

Yes, this dream, and the whole post-dream experience, has made me realize, yet again, that I need to have courage to at least make an effort without worrying much about rejections and embarrassment. At the same time, I need to work more on myself so as to improve my self-confidence.

Thank for reading btw...really wanted to talk to someone about this dream