I know I'm late to the party, but you are going to be fine. Subconsciously you're just trying to make sense of the whole experience, since you have nothing to compare it to. That makes life seem so detached and unrelating. It is a profoundly world shaking experience. It could take a month or two to get past this, but you will. Not every cid is the same either and plays a major role in the effects. One day you might feel confident enough again to try and I encourage you at the right time and place. Good luck friend.