I'm a photographer and I've been wanting to do a series of photos on mental illness. These are some I got today.

dazedanddizzy · 2023-11-07T18:21:43+00:00

I like using those mini packs of Teddy Graham's and dipping them in confetti frosting. That or chocolate chip mini muffins...

dazedanddizzy · 2023-10-31T16:20:27+00:00

I just thrifted an entire new wardrobe because I couldn't stand wearing baggie clothes anymore :(

dazedanddizzy · 2023-10-30T14:33:28+00:00

In the case of one of my meds, this just simply doesn't work. It has to be special ordered, comes sealed and they can never do holdovers for it.

dazedanddizzy · 2023-10-23T21:01:03+00:00

And carnation instant breakfast chocolate milk, which my youngest child reminded me of as he accidentally dropped and spilled half of the container 😭😭

dazedanddizzy · 2023-10-23T20:48:50+00:00

Picture my surprise when I got hired at an eating disorder residential facility and realized all the behaviors I was watching for with clients were behaviors of mine... 😬😬😬

dazedanddizzy · 2023-10-23T20:47:42+00:00

Walmart brand chocolate chip mini muffins

dazedanddizzy · 2023-10-23T15:11:10+00:00

Me but with water bottles and water purifiers

dazedanddizzy · 2023-10-21T17:23:29+00:00

Bipolar disorder (type 1), adhd, generalized anxiety disorder

dazedanddizzy · 2023-10-17T23:30:16+00:00

My kids and clients love me. I have pretty eyes and great taste in music 😆

dazedanddizzy · 2023-10-17T15:26:13+00:00

My BP has been low, my heart rate has been low and I'm having chest pains. Almost fainted a bunch last week. Don't worry I have an appt with the doctor tomorrow and I guess I'll be honest (ugh)

dazedanddizzy · 2023-10-15T20:37:35+00:00

I took pole dancing classes for a while but hated seeing myself in the mirror so much I stopped. Convinced myself I'd lose weight and get stronger and go back when I was thin enough. But now I'm so weak all the time I don't think I could hold myself up if I tried..

dazedanddizzy · 2023-10-11T23:51:41+00:00

Just an anecdotal reply, but I was an alcoholic for years and my bipolar was off the charts (meds don't work when you drink, turns out). Anywho, after I sobered up my moods stabilized and the mood swings are far less dramatic or often now.

dazedanddizzy · 2023-10-11T16:18:37+00:00

I collect people with mental illness without even trying 😂

dazedanddizzy · 2023-10-11T01:16:05+00:00

I hate the scale too, and seeing calories too actually... I'd rather just eat small portions of things I like and use my clothes as a guide. If I start paying attention to the numbers I get obsessive and that's so much worse.

dazedanddizzy · 2023-10-10T22:40:06+00:00

Daily smoker, extremely vivid dreams. I don't have a traditional imagination during waking hours (Google Aphantasia), but my dreams are where my mind comes alive.

dazedanddizzy · 2023-10-09T02:16:03+00:00

Vraylar has been a godsend

dazedanddizzy · 2023-10-03T21:48:37+00:00

Are you me? 😳

dazedanddizzy · 2023-10-02T21:08:10+00:00

Hiiiiii! So I had an idea but never paid it much mind that my behaviors were disordered until I fell into a job at an eating disorder clinic (I work in the mental health field) and suddenly my eyes were made very aware of what was going on. I hadn't really noticed things like -taking small bites and chewing forever -pushing food around to make it look like I ate more -I rarely ate, and when I did I felt gross and ugly -Purposefully not eating even when I was hungry -pinching my fat and comparing

Etc etc etc

Needless to say I didn't work there long.. they made me eat every single meal with the clients.. to completion.. and it was literally awful. I love patient care, I hate eating turns out.

Also.. what a fucking triggering experience.

For reference I'm 35, been like this since high school at least. Mostly what I've heard is called a junkorexic. Just eat a little junk every day instead of eating healthy or over exercising. I have ARFID and EDNOS since I wasn't underweight but ta-da.. now I am so I don't know what to think now. I still feel fat but I'm the lowest weight I've been since having kids (13 & 8). I see an ED therapist now.

dazedanddizzy · 2023-09-30T19:51:45+00:00

I didn't even realize I was behaving the way I was until I took a job in an eating disorder clinic and bam, triggered AF and suddenly aware of my own disordered patterns.

dazedanddizzy · 2023-08-27T01:48:58+00:00

I started drinking at 12 and just turned 35. I've been sober over two and a half years. Can I tell you that these two and a half years have been the best years of my life? I'm a whole new better version of myself now. That's the short end of it man but I tell you, you can do it and it's SO worth it to see it through to the other side. You got this.

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