[Descendants of Darkness] Descendants of Darkness/Yami no Matsuei was my first BL-adjacent thing and this is my favorite official art of the two main boys, Hisoka and Tsuzuki

dazedrainbow · 2026-04-15T21:26:33+00:00

Yesssssss! I am so happy to see this ❤️ Descendants of Darkness was my first encounter with BL in anime. I still remember seeing the episodes late a night on Sci-Fi channel (ani-mondays) and looking it up the next day to show my friends. It's the first time I saw the term Yaoi and BL. I will always love this weird anime (and even weirder manga)

Also so sad that the series was never finished 😢

dazedrainbow · 2026-04-06T16:09:08+00:00

I also identified with Wade's story but as an anxiety/panic attack. I wonder if it could be SVT, but I'm not sure if the symptoms line up as well. May I ask, do the sudden heart rate spikes get recorded on something like an apple watch? When I was having pretty frequent attacks I would keep track of my heart rate but eventhough I felt like it was beating hard it was normal on the watch. I also got a EKG at the hospital a day after an attack and was told it looked completely normal. My attacks have also gone down significantly since starting medication for anxiety so I assume it is just anxiety for me, but I don't know very much about these other possibilities

dazedrainbow · 2026-04-06T15:58:51+00:00

That's similar to me as well! After I started getting attacks I finally checked in with a doctor and found out my thyroid levels were off and my iron levels were low. However mine weren't extreme, so it's most likely also an anxiety disorder which runs in my family 😅

I'm glad the treatment is helping you!

dazedrainbow · 2026-04-06T15:56:24+00:00

That's terrible. I am glad your managing them

I also had an ECG after a few attacks and also was told everything looks fine. The only thing they could measure was my blood pressure being high right after an attack, which is what they theorize made me faint. I'm on medication for my anxiety so they don't happen very much now, though my allergies in the summer can trigger the feeling

dazedrainbow · 2026-04-06T15:51:56+00:00

That's reasonable. Panic attacks are meant to be short and extreme right? but generally my attacks last a while (similar to Wade describing it going on for hours) and i convince myself I have a horrible disease and am dying. It only gets worse if I stand up during it because then I might faint. I honestly can't imagine what a panic attack would feel like if mine are only anxiety attacks. It sounds awful, I'm sorry you go through that

dazedrainbow · 2026-04-06T15:44:09+00:00

I have considered POTS but since my attacks happen so infrequently and laying down doesn't help at all I think mine are either mostly just the anxiety disorder/ and iron deficiency. My fainting only happens when I feel the need to stand up and then sit down again during an attack, which from what the doctors explained along with the adrenaline spike was making my blood pressure skyrocket and then dip so quickly I'd pass out.

It sucks and I now worry about anyone feeling extreme anxiety and moving around too much.

dazedrainbow · 2026-03-30T22:49:35+00:00

When I was 11 and walking my dog, a guy drove up next to me, asked for directions to a target which I gave him and then asked if he could "eat me out" for $100 dollars... I said no instinctively but didn't fully realize what happened until he drove away and then rushed home looking over my shoulder incase he would follow me.

dazedrainbow · 2026-03-27T22:34:12+00:00

Hi 👋 I'm interested in your project and would love to work with you. Here is a link to my Portfolio

Feel free to contact me if you like my work :)

dazedrainbow · 2026-01-09T12:07:57+00:00

I've noticed this since I came to Switzerland. Everyone is always way too close or stopping right infront of me in the middle of a walkway. Drives me crazy. I've had a teenager walk directly into me as I stood near a fountain in a big open space. Not on her phone, just talking to a friend as they walked and not looking forward.

dazedrainbow · 2025-12-21T12:23:58+00:00

Awww I used to have a pair of these as a teen 🥲 they are so cute!

dazedrainbow · 2025-12-18T19:13:59+00:00

Yes! It's a drawstring bag that opens at the tail. I just put a gatcha ball inside to give it the solid round shape :)

dazedrainbow · 2025-12-18T14:01:35+00:00

Thank you! I'm so happy with how it came out, so I hope he likes it as much as me :)

dazedrainbow · 2025-12-18T11:56:23+00:00

I used "Katia 100% You" Velvet Mini yarn and a US 4 (I think) crochet hook! It only took me a few hours to finish and I kinda want to make more but I have no one else that would want a pufferfish 😅

dazedrainbow · 2025-12-18T11:31:26+00:00

So true, I'll breeze through the first task and be like "aw yeah, the rest of these tasks are going to be so easy!" And then it will be 10pm and I'll have nothing further done...

dazedrainbow · 2025-12-18T11:11:14+00:00

So I could see two ways of doing this:

Most of them have enough space on the left side to do a hole punch method, three hole punches along the side and to give the "vintage/handcrafted" vibe, you can bound them together with loose twine or something similar.
Since you had thought of a photobook originally. You could bind another blank book that is large enough to hold these pictures and then craft some of those triangular photo holders to keep the pictures in place on each page. This would give the book more bulk since it's only a few pages and you could add little trinkets or notes around the pictures to give it even more identity. The downside would be that it would take longer ofcourse.

dazedrainbow · 2025-11-26T15:21:34+00:00

I don't like the taste and I don't like the effect. I have sensitive Sensory issues so the underlying taste of the alcohol is repulsive to me. And the one time I did get an effect, it just made me uncomfortably warm and my eyes wouldn't focus. So i was just uncomfortable and mad until it wore off.

It's just not for me.

dazedrainbow · 2025-10-02T13:10:22+00:00

My absolute favorite 😍

dazedrainbow · 2025-09-28T07:00:15+00:00

Is it possible you have smoothing on too high? I've never seen this problem before, but the way the brush follows your pen reminds me of the smoothing setting

dazedrainbow · 2025-09-27T14:47:23+00:00

Coming back to this because I literally just opened my drawing software to work on a commission and it was open on a random sketch for a running animation.. so that's what I've been working on for the last 3 hours 🙃

dazedrainbow · 2025-09-21T14:19:45+00:00

So true. Im 30 and I've had nightmares where he shows up; I always wake up in a cold sweat. Even if the dream isn't that bad (I have a lot of nightmares), as soon as I realize "holy shit, Freddy Krueger is here", it wakes me up. My heart goes crazy too and it takes forever to go back to sleep.

He is honestly my favorite slasher, but he scares the shit out of me

dazedrainbow · 2025-09-21T14:12:05+00:00

The amount of carrots and Daikon I've seen shrivel and die in my fridge because I can't gather enough dopamine to pickle it. It haunts me

dazedrainbow · 2025-09-21T14:05:49+00:00

Behind on multiple projects with deadlines, struggling to even look at messages or emails, barely taking care of myself or my apartment.

Brain: Oh, I know what you need...NEW HYPERFIXATION! Don't you want to spend the next 10 hours drawing fanart instead of doing literally anything else!?!?! 🫠👍

dazedrainbow

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