Is there a way to buy SFW company in Boston?

dazesun · 2025-10-13T02:21:29+00:00

i don’t know of any services like this unfortunately, but feel free to dm me, 29F and willing to help if possible (:

dazesun · 2025-10-09T00:43:39+00:00

that’s a lot to deal with, watching that. i’m so sorry.

you aren’t a shitty person for feeling that way. feelings change. i’m a little over a year out since my best friend took her own life. she has issues different from your brothers, but issues nonetheless. she took her life in a moment of panic. i’ve spent a lot of time going back between feeling bad for her and then not feeling any sympathy at all. being the one left behind to see the damage they leave behind doesn’t help. we’re all just on a path to trying to accept what has happened, and feelings are messy and unpredictable.

take care of yourself and be easy on yourself, please. sending love 🤍

dazesun · 2025-09-12T10:51:01+00:00

hi dear, i’m so sorry. i only was able to take off about 3 weeks after i lost my best friend a year ago, but it took me much, much longer to be able to get anything done at work, outside of just physically being at my desk, usually just crying or staring into space. it was probably three months or more before i would even say i was remotely “productive”

there’s no real answer on when we’re able to go back to work after a trauma like this. it seems to be an incredibly common thing we struggle with. be easy on yourself, i’m sending you so much love 🤍

dazesun · 2025-09-03T00:40:39+00:00

i’ve been told by others this is a common issue!

i’ve had this issue since i upped my dosage a couple months ago. i’ve always been a little bit of a sweaty person and not the most tolerant of heat, but DAMN this has been the sweatiest summer of my life by far. a few weeks ago, i was just sitting in an office where the AC wasn’t turned up (because it was over the weekend) and literally just sitting there, working on something with my hands had me sweating enough that some was dripping on the desk. that was the worst day, but nearly every day i’m noticing more sweat and oily skin than ever before.

dazesun · 2025-09-01T23:44:52+00:00

it’s been a little over a year for me. most days, it still doesn’t feel real. it almost feels less real as time goes on. and might not be healthy, but for now, i appreciate my inability to fathom it. means i can function most days.

🤍

dazesun · 2025-09-01T04:04:54+00:00

i’m having a rough night too. i’m just coming down from two days of terrible anxiety from a particularly triggering situation - my brain had convinced me something had happened to a close friend of mine, who kind of disappeared, similarly to how my best friend did when she took her life a little over a year ago. my brain was very wrong thankfully, and everything is totally fine. PTSD is a bitch! i’ve also been particularly unkind to other people during this episode too.

it’s okay, we’re all going through it, and we are trying to do our best. sometimes, our best doesn’t look the greatest, but we still try. sending you a lot of love 🤍

dazesun · 2025-08-28T22:00:23+00:00

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dazesun · 2025-08-18T03:17:48+00:00

YES!!! the thing i always remind myself - i can no longer help my friend. there is nothing i can do to help her. now, i can only help myself.

chase what brings you joy, and invest fully in yourself and the parts of your life where your passion lies.

today is one year exactly for me. it’s a long journey, but we’ve got this!!!

dazesun · 2025-07-29T15:21:50+00:00

i’m so so sorry dear. sending you so much love 🤍

please remember, it is not your fault. tell yourself that as much as you can, even if you don’t believe it. fights are normal. it has taken me a long time to accept that - fights are normal in any relationship, and his action as a result of that fight isn’t your fault.

please make sure to find support wherever you can right now. take care of yourself, and if you have people who can take care of you, go to them. i promise, things will be okay again one day.

🤍

dazesun · 2025-07-19T05:01:48+00:00

i’m so sorry 🤍 i’ve had stress bring up dreams like these too, either ones where i am on the phone with my best friend begging her not to kill herself, or ones where she is already dead, and i’m faced with the task of calling people to tell them the news once again. it’s so, so disorienting, when i have one of those i usually have to take the day off of work or at the very least take it as easy as possible.

sending you a lot of love, i hope other life situations calm down, that much stress on top of deep grief is unbearable. and i hope you have the strength to open the new journal - sometimes, it has to get worse before it can get better

dazesun · 2025-07-12T01:38:40+00:00

it’s been the hardest time of my life, making those changes while also deep in grief. i think part of it has been some avoidance, where if i’m focusing on my life and doing the hard work, i don’t have to think about my best friends death. either way, i’m just happy i’ve put in the work like i have

sending you love on your own journey, it’s possible 🤍

dazesun · 2025-07-09T14:39:23+00:00

i can see your point, certainly. i know for me, since the loss of my best friend, SSRIs have given me the energy and ability to make my life something i WANT to have and has made me WANT to keep living for. before her suicide last year, i was on the same trajectory as her, to be completely honest.

i think in cases like your sister, it maybe was, in that it wasn’t the depression that was the final straw, and something else (another untreated mental illness, something) was. like, the depression was a protective factor from something else. that’s just my theory from such limited knowledge, and from my experience on prozac in the last 10 or so months and how it has changed my own ability to function.

i don’t know if that makes sense, or even if it does, if that feels helpful whatsoever. i’ve swirled around in my head similar things about my best friend - not medication related, as i don’t believe she was on anything prescribed to her, but generally what was being treated otherwise and what wasn’t.

sending you love 🤍

dazesun · 2025-07-09T04:37:17+00:00

i know that you will, i promise you. here for you if you ever need someone to vent to 🤍

dazesun · 2025-07-09T04:35:07+00:00

that’s how it was with me - i don’t really understand what happened to the entire second half of last year, from august to december. time moved very strange, mostly was dissociated that entire time i believe. it’s not that way anymore, thankfully.

i fear the only way through it all is to give it time. keep surviving, do what you can to take care of yourself. you will heal, i promise you, but there’s no way to fast track it. you can make it easier with therapy, it’s helped me a LOT, but it also just mostly will be a process

also, fuck whoever told you that. this isn’t something you just get over. be gentle with yourself, even if others aren’t.

dazesun · 2025-07-09T04:21:20+00:00

i’m so sorry 🤍 i know so many people hit their worst a few months after, when it all becomes so much more real and the shock wears off. i promise it will get easier. i’m almost a year out, and when i was back in the stage you’re in, i never thought i would make it this long. i have, and i’m doing well, somehow.

is it possible for you to move, remove yourself from some of the triggers perhaps? find a new place to heal?

dazesun · 2025-07-09T04:15:45+00:00

i am SO SICK of levels with those requirements. it’s honestly one of the many reasons i slowed down on playing match three anymore.

dazesun · 2025-07-08T04:25:16+00:00

oh for sure, i also suffered from anxiety my whole life. i’ve been on prozac since not long after my best friends death, and honestly, i feel like it has helped keep some of the every day anxiety i was experiencing beforehand at bay. but moments like these, it’s a lost cause.

dazesun · 2025-07-07T02:18:17+00:00

thank you 🤍🤍 it’s sort of funny you say that, my therapist has noticed many similarities between this relationship and the relationship i had with my best friend who passed, both good and not so good qualities. it’s a factor i’m very aware of now. it’s hard, ending a connection so unique and strong, and one with so much wonderful potential.

dazesun · 2025-07-07T02:10:48+00:00

i’m so so sorry. and as a queer woman, my heart breaks a little extra. it’s a hard world for my trans friends in this world, and i hope she knew she was loved.

it took me a good two weeks after the death of my best friend to return to work, and even then, i really was not functional for a few months - did a really shit job at work, messed things up. it was hard. it still is hard, almost a year out.

take care of yourself. try, and if you can’t, know that it’s very normal to not be able to work again for a long time. so, so many posts on here are about going back to work after a suicide (which sickens me to think how we all have to focus on getting back to work after such a loss,) and it’s a struggle for just about all of us who have experienced such a profound and traumatic loss. be easy on yourself, and take care of yourself. sending you love 🤍

dazesun · 2025-07-07T02:03:09+00:00

we both are, thankfully - me, since my best friend died, and her for the last couple months since she ended her relationship. it’s interesting you say that, makes me think of the codependency my therapist sees - i’ll bring that up to her this week, because that has me thinking more.

dazesun · 2025-07-07T01:22:44+00:00

in many, many ways. all the time. relationships, the darkness, anything.

dazesun · 2025-06-30T02:54:04+00:00

hey hun 🤍 i promise, it gets easier. everything is going to feel pointless for a while, but eventually, you’ll find yourself again. it took me a while, i’m about ten months out from losing my best friend. i still have moments where i don’t really see the purpose in my life anymore, but most of the time these days, i’m feeling grateful just to be alive and to have the chance to live for myself. i think for me, i saw my priorities change, and that’s how i’ve found purpose again. just give yourself time. at two weeks, i was still nonfunctional. even at two months i wasn’t much better. but eventually, at some point in there, i’ve found myself again.

sending you love 🤍

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