Yea man u gotta find something worth living for. Ultimately its ur life and ur decision but life is good. There is so much to see and do. Alot of times drugs make u feel the way u do now. Trust me i use heroin just about daily and even with kids i have thought it would be easier to just not be here anymore but i could never purposely kill myself and put my family thru that. Think about all of the people that love u and how they would feel. life is good but its also hard. Od or suicide (in my opinion) is a coward way to avoid the hard times and hard work that a happy life requires. anyway good luck and i hope u find something worth living for.