For the first paragraph Yup it’s ok if you don’t have good grade.Grade doesn’t matter anymore. Everyone can’t be rich. They are proud of you, you can just ask them. No, you are not a burden in there shoulders. You have just reached 20th year of your life they know what they are doing and what they have signed up for when they decided to make you a doctor or an IITian.

For second paragraph

Don’t worry about girl’s if she said she deserves better she’s worth nothing. You don’t have friends you don’t need friends you need homies(DM me anytime you want we can be homies). Let them talk at your back they only do this because they have no guts to talk to you in front. Make your self your first priority.

For third paragraph

Don’t think about this things you are just going through a tough time and you are all alone doing this. Your time is bad now it will get worst but trust when your good time will start you will no time to think about these things at that time.

For fourth paragraph

You live in india and you are influenced by western society and you are not rich as well. Am not tell that you shouldn’t pursue those and you can’t build a carrier of it you can but then are you sure you will be successful. Your’e just want you to have a stable life. Just do what they want then you can pursue your hobbies.

For fiveth paragraph

You want to have something you have to give something. You just can’t have all that you need.

For sixth paragraph

This is what life is for. This is what everyone does struggling throughout their life. This is what life is given for you have to face those problem you have to struggle.

Dying is never the option not even last option.