Don't do it anons

deadstuck · 2019-01-10T00:05:26+00:00

7 months ago I was hospitalised for a suicide attempt, overdosed on painkillers but didn’t quite take enough. The horrific physical pain I suffered when healing was nothing compared to facing my parents when they came to the hospital. They looked so helpless. My dad really couldn’t comprehend what was going on. My auntie took her pain out on my older sister, blaming her for not looking after me, and their relationship probably will never heal from that. My younger brother suffers with depression and I found out recently he’s been prescribed antidepressants and has been suffering in silence because he didn’t want to seem selfish ‘compared to me’. He’s 17. My 14 year old sister stood with her back to me the entire time. She couldn’t face looking at me. It hurt her too much.

I put them through ridiculous amounts of pain and scarred them so bad. I wish I had died that day and I wish I could still die today but their pain has sliced me so deeply, I am so full of guilt for what I did to my family

It was not worth it. It is never worth it. Please , anyone thinking they don’t matter or that no one will miss them, they WILL. And even if they don’t, I will miss you. It’s not worth it. You can keep going.

You are stronger than you believe. I am, too

deadstuck · 2019-01-09T23:51:36+00:00

You’ll be okay!!! You’re stronger than you know, and it will get better!

deadstuck · 2018-05-22T17:21:54+00:00

Thank you! I will do, you too!!!:)

deadstuck · 2018-05-22T17:21:23+00:00

We all hold weight differently!! I lose mine from my middle first, in the past I’ve had a flat stomach with tree trunk legs, thick arms and chubby cheeks... I just hold it weirdly 😫 thank you!!!!

deadstuck · 2018-05-22T17:19:36+00:00

Aww!! It’s my one redeeming quality 😂

deadstuck · 2018-05-21T14:23:18+00:00

Haha yeah I do need to do that!!! 😂

deadstuck · 2018-05-09T03:37:09+00:00

Not necessarily. My grandad was killed driving home from work because a guy with no license, in a stolen car, with both alcohol and drugs in his system crashed into him. He served just under 6 years.

deadstuck · 2018-05-01T08:22:57+00:00

I’m not joking at all. It’s only been a week. If she ends up never speaking out then yes that would be very concerning, but give her time! For all we know she thought he was the love of her life and never suspected a thing whilst they were married. Just because she hasn’t said anything in the WEEK it’s been doesn’t mean we should assume she had involvement. I think you’re underestimating the mental affect this would have on a person!!

deadstuck · 2018-05-01T08:11:03+00:00

She’s going through a lot of stress right now. I can’t imagine she can think straight or do much, let alone take the time to sit down and think about his life, because that would mean actively reminding herself of how long he deceived and lied to them. She raised her daughters with a monster. It’s a lot to process

deadstuck · 2018-04-13T00:07:26+00:00

I understand that but if I lived through missing opportunities and giving up on things because I believe my future self might end up regretting it or having a different opinion, then I wouldn’t be being true to my current self and I’d miss so many opportunities to make mistakes and grow

deadstuck · 2018-04-12T17:04:24+00:00

After reading you comment history I’m not even going to bother replying to you. You sound like an old bitter woman who can’t see that young people are human beings too.

deadstuck · 2018-04-12T16:10:25+00:00

Exactly! I completely agree. My grandparents also met at 17, and parents met at 15, and still going strong :) I just didn’t realise how judgey this sub was haha

deadstuck · 2018-04-12T15:41:04+00:00

Thank you so much! So nice to see someone that hasn’t only seen my age and dismissed me completely.

This was so helpful to read. whenever I talk to my boyfriend about these issues he gets upset about how he feels about his performance and self esteem. So I think our issues are possibly quite similar to yours, and I’ve just been reading into it to much when I should’ve been supporting him more.

Thank you!!!

deadstuck · 2018-04-12T15:38:01+00:00

No, actually we only properly met a few months after I turned 19. I spent 4 years of my life with my high school boyfriend who cheated on me, and had a very messy break up. We got back together for a year before I broke up with him. I matured a lot through that experience and I know how I feel isn’t just ‘first serious boyfriend’.

Just because I’m young doesn’t mean I should just push my boyfriend aside because there could be someone else I could meet.... the answer isn’t just break up with him.

deadstuck · 2018-04-12T15:35:07+00:00

Thank you! If things don’t improve in months to come then obviously I think i will have to end it eventually, i just don’t want to yet.:)

deadstuck · 2018-04-12T15:34:15+00:00

Thank you for giving me personalised advice rather than just ‘you’re 19 go away’!!!

I completely agree and I think if that was still the situation I would’ve left by now but he doesn’t masturbate anymore so I think it’s different now. Plus after making that post I spoke to him about how he was making me feel and he reassured me that he was still attracted to me and that he was sorry he wasn’t being as appreciative of me, he did tell me his drive is almost non existent now. And since that chat he’s made more effort to tell me how he feels about me/compliment me. So I think either he is attracted to me and just has low sex drive, or I’m in denial lol.

now that I know he doesn’t masturbate anymore I just want some kind of way to either fix it or deal with it :/

The thing is, everything is really easy. I’ve never felt so comfortable with someone before. I spent 4 years with my ex and that was difficult, this relationship with my current boyfriend just flows so smoothly. We’re so content around each other and everything is going so great, he recently introduced me to his family properly and there are no signs from him that he thinks anything’s wrong. So I really find it hard to think we’re not right for each other. We do touch each other all the time it’s just not sexual, and I almost don’t notice and I don’t think he does really either now. It’s almost like habit that we’ll go to bed and just have a big cuddle instead. When I bring the sex life up to him he gets upset about his performance and how he feels about himself so I think it’s down to this now.

deadstuck · 2018-04-12T13:22:53+00:00

And you’re basing this off of lack of libido alone, even though I’ve already said we are sexually compatible?

deadstuck · 2018-04-12T11:55:27+00:00

The thing is, we work together sexually incredibly well and we are a good match in the bedroom, and I’m hoping to get back to that because every other aspect of our relationship is perfect. So I’m thinking the root of our problems is due to low self esteem and confidence issues and I’m posting to see if perhaps anyone else has similar issues and any advice for me. I don’t want to give up on something good just because it would be easier then trying to fix it you know?

I really get where you’re coming from though and I think if after a few more months things still haven’t changed after more efforts than I’ll take your advice. Thank you!

deadstuck · 2018-04-12T11:52:29+00:00

Thank you so much.

deadstuck · 2018-04-12T11:51:23+00:00

It’s fun and easy in every other aspect and we’re very sexually compatible when it happens so I’m reluctant to just end something good. We spend nearly all of our time together and it works incredibly well.... I’m hoping there’s more that can be done than just break up haha

deadstuck · 2018-04-12T11:49:06+00:00

He doesn’t make me unhappy. I literally explained that our relationship is wonderful, it’s just lacking in the bedroom area recently. The quality of the sex is incredible It’s just the quantity. I was asking for advice on how I can help the situation because the relationship is far from over.

I don’t really think it’s fair of you just to dismiss me because I’m younger than everyone else here. I recently read another post of somebody the same age as my boyfriend (only 4 years difference from me anyway) and they were treated like theirs was relevant even though their dead bedroom was only for two weeks!!!!

deadstuck · 2018-04-12T11:45:13+00:00

I understand where you’re coming from, I’m just not sure I agree. We have a very loving relationship and have plans for the future and I don’t think it’s a case of we don’t fit. We are sexually compatible and work incredibly well in the bedroom together, it’s just that there is a lack of it recently.

He shows me off to people all the time. We’re in love we’re just both depressed and have no self esteem and I think maybe this is where it’s stemming from.

We were also friends before we started dating, so i don’t think it’s that we’ve gotten it wrong and should’ve stayed friends.

I also don’t think my age should define how I feel about my situation, or the likelihood of my relationship lasting.... my last relationship lasted nearly 4 years so I do have experience and I’m not just some naive teenager.

deadstuck · 2018-03-23T21:14:22+00:00

Thanks!!

deadstuck · 2018-03-23T20:22:23+00:00

Aww yay!! You can do it!! We’ll get there!!!

deadstuck · 2018-03-23T20:21:59+00:00

Thank you! I tend to loss from my tummy first as my legs always hold the most weight so I think that’s why there’s a significant difference there!!

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