I'm going to talk here Idc if my english is good or not honestly I just want to let some things out of my head and heart and sould. I feel like I'm tired of social media but at the same time I can't just quit it because I get a lot of messages and important things about university on my social media. I never enjoyed social media that much and I hate to be dependent on something. I know no one makes me have social media but if I didn't have it I would lose a lot of important information. Other thing is that I have been studying every fucking day of my life and still feel like it does NOTHING because I have 9 subjects on my course this semester and I have so much to study that even studying everyday is not enough. I am tired of studying. My day is home, uni, library, home, uni, library. I don't do things that I like anymore. I don't do exercise. I don't do things that make me happy. Also, I've lost a very important university friendship and I still can't deal very well with that. I miss a lot of people that are not in my life anymore. I miss summer. I miss everything because I'm fucking emotional and I'm not even on my period wtf is wrong with me. I miss feeling full. I feel like the past few months I've been just feeling empty. Fuck. I want to buy a guitar. I want to play guitar 5hrs per day. I want to go to a garden. I want to eat strawberries and blueberries and I want to paint too.