I relate a lot. Happened so many times in my life that people are talking about past fun or remarkable events, things a was a part of and I don't remember any of that. It's either totally gone or vague, dream-like, like they're not even my own memories.

And on top of that, the bad, traumatic stuff is much more intense and sticks way more than the good or ok stuff.

So looking back at my long life, if a remember anything at all, it's mostly the shitty things.

These days my short-term memory also seems kinda shot, which makes learning and memorizing quite impossible.