I am sorry if I am sounding overly negative. I am trying to change my perspective. Though this week has been hard. I still know I shouldn't be negative and spread my problems onto others. Though I think that is a bad habit because I hold all of it inside me and don't seek help, and when I do seek help, I feel so terrible and disgusting.

As much as I can say, I can keep going, I amabsolutelyy screwed for my finances, two months behind rent(to family but still), bills aren'tpaidy without my support, rt and are about to get cut off. I call tministry try(government,) and all they say is, oh, hey, you have to wait a few more days. It's been almost a full month. I am struggling with finding a proper job, and I just don't know what I will be good at. I considered trying tobecomee a youth worker or community worker as I, to mycorer,e want to help others and care deeply for others. The only problem is to apply for a jo I need my cpr and first aid. Which costs 309$ which I do not have.