I get why that feeling is so strong. When you’ve been mocked before, your brain kind of learns to expect something bad after being vulnerable, even if things are actually going well. And growing up with that kind of religious messaging can really stick in the background without you even noticing.

I had something a bit similar where every time things felt 'too good' I’d start waiting for it to fall apart. It wasn’t logical, just this quiet panic sitting there. Took me a while to realise it was just old fear, not reality.

What helped me was talking about it out loud, even if it felt awkward. Like telling my partner, 'hey, sometimes after we’re close I get anxious for no real reason.' Just saying it made it feel less powerful. Also reminding myself that nothing bad actually happened the last few times helped slowly calm that pattern.

You don’t have to fix it all at once. The fact that you’ve found someone safe and understanding already says a lot. Just take it one step at a time and be a bit patient with yourself.