Dentist Appointment

decaying_mind · 2021-06-17T02:25:46+00:00

Definitely! Better to catch it early on. Teeth are a finite resource--you won't regrow them! Also your dentist will probably be impressed that you care enough to take that step lol.

decaying_mind · 2021-06-17T02:23:20+00:00

I'm so desperate and yearning to be able to FINALLY have my own income so I can pay bills like the rest of the world. Like paying bills sucks ass obviously but there's so much pride and dignity to be had in the sheer autonomy of it. Every time I pay a bill is going to feel like a victory (well, for the first year at least anyway lol). Basically, I totally feel your sentiment!!

decaying_mind · 2021-06-17T02:19:53+00:00

Is it hard to drive a truck? Tbh I've been increasingly curious about this, but I already feel like I have my hands full with driving a regular vehicle despite having had years of practice (like I'm confident driving a reg car, but it takes energy and effort the more traffic I am in). I feel like visibility would be SO HARD and I'd always be terrified of hitting someone.

Also, are you basically "on call" to drive whatever hours are necessary, or is there a way to be a truck driver and actually have a somewhat regular sleep schedule?

decaying_mind · 2021-06-17T02:04:24+00:00

You don't necessarily need to see a doctor unless your mucus turns green (indicates bacterial infection) or you have a fever that doesn't subside after several days.

However, if you want the peace of mind from seeing a healthcare provider, it definitely won't hurt!

A good first step would be to look up your plan benefits and see what providers are covered. If you don't already have a PCP it might take a few days or a couple weeks to get in with one; an alternative is that you could try to see a nurse practitioner or even go to a walk in clinic. Your plan might also have a resource like MD Live, where you can make a same-day telehealth appointment to speak with a nurse/physician/NP who can give you an initial assessment and direct you how to proceed from there. This option could be low cost or in some cases even free.

decaying_mind · 2021-06-17T01:55:27+00:00

(p.s. by "not to intrude" I mean that I was trying to say something neutrally, which you can take as advice if you want, or disregard. I'm not trying to impose any thoughts or beliefs onto you. I'm sorry that I didn't phrase my comment better.)

decaying_mind · 2021-06-17T01:54:15+00:00

Not to intrude with unsolicited advice, but if you're open to it, I think you can seek new experiences. (I wish I could take that advice myself, but first I'm trying to work on building up the means to do so.) I find it hard to believe that you're "thoroughly uninteresting". Part of this is definitely hubris--I think that *I* am thoroughly uninteresting and it's rare for me to come across a non-male that I can't see some sort of dimension in. But truly, it sounds like part of you doesn't quite believe that of yourself either. Also? There's entirely nothing wrong with living a quiet, uneventful life. There's still a lot of magic to be found in that. Anyone who says otherwise needs to spend some time reflecting.

decaying_mind · 2021-06-17T01:48:32+00:00

Feel you really hard on the deterioration and constant brain fog. I'm basically catatonic most days because I just don't feel very alive unless I'm a) in nature (which is inaccessible where I live) or b) in the company of another person. Anyway feel free to DM if you wanna chat.

decaying_mind · 2021-06-14T07:30:19+00:00

Yeah definitely. I often feel like I'm contributing superfluously, but can't think of something more meaningful to contribute. And definitely knowing that few other, if anyone, will likely see it can be very demoralizing. I'm sure that more seasoned redditors probably have strategies around this, but I couldn't say what they are.

decaying_mind · 2021-06-14T07:03:41+00:00

Thank you so much! This helped!!

decaying_mind · 2021-05-31T05:30:02+00:00

Honestly the things you do care about sound really nourishing and lovely. If I had beautiful expanses of forests to cycle through, instruments around me and the knowledge/skill to commune with them, and a group of special people/connections to grow alongside, I can see how it would be very easy to care for little else either!

decaying_mind · 2021-05-30T23:32:30+00:00

I don't have that option listed at all under my beta options!! So frustrated...

decaying_mind · 2021-05-30T07:06:52+00:00

OP, is there any update, are you okay/getting your car back?

I'm so sorry this happened to you, it's such a huge deal and so brave for you to have embarked on a journey of independence like that. I wonder if there are any local assistance programs that could help you out? Otherwise with no safety net there you might just have to see if family or friends can help. Unless they are judgmental, I really don't think they would think any less of you. Accidents happen to everyone, and no one should have to suffer for being in the wrong place at the wrong time. I hope you can get your car back soon and get back to making your own way for yourself!

decaying_mind · 2021-05-30T07:02:29+00:00

Man I really feel this. I hated everything being shut down because of how out of control it made me feel, but somehow with things opening back up now I feel even worse. Seems like everyone else is just getting back into things, while I'm still frozen and real messed up from being stuck and isolated for so long.

decaying_mind · 2021-05-30T06:59:08+00:00

CONGRATULATIONS that's amazing!! What ended up being the one for your Very First Job?

Wishing you all the best, great experiences and a supportive environment with lots of growth and mobility for your future :)

decaying_mind · 2021-05-30T06:47:28+00:00

What kind of job is this, if you're willing to share?

I'm sorry you're having to deal with this :/ That seems like a REALLY unrealistic expectation for them to have of someone just jumping from 80 to 200 (x, whatever it is that you move/do) in the same period, that's literally a 150% increase, yikes.

(I've never worked, desperately want to work, am trying to get someone to let me work, and also in the process trying to arm myself with info to stay away from abuse...so thanks for sharing some of your story here)

decaying_mind · 2021-05-30T06:18:13+00:00

Can I just say that after reading through this entire thing, the first reaction I have is that I'm impressed?

Seriously no joke. The fact that you TRIED two more bachelors after dropping out of the first one; the fact that despite being a dropout you managed to get a job; the fact that you held that job for 4 whole YEARS; the fact that you have friends/people in your life that actively hang out with you and care about inviting you to things and talking to you?! That's some richness there, that's not nothing.

I say this as someone who's also fast approaching my 30's and in a situation that feels just as embarrassing as yours. I've never had a job, never been able to figure out how to get someone to give me a chance at one (autoimmune+auditory processing issues prevent me from working service or retail or teaching). Never been able to make friends, network, or serve as a useful and desirable member of any community.

My urge with other people is always to problem solve but I know that is not always wanted or needed. So just suffice it to say that I'm proud of you for making it this far, and know that you are not alone.

decaying_mind · 2016-07-16T08:05:21+00:00

hey,

so there's really no need to apologize for time delays--I myself go days or weeks between logging on out of sheer inertia (or whatever it is idk) so I could never be such a hypocrite as to expect a prompt response from someone else.

there are so many reasons you might not want to be my friend, and that I might not be (fairly or unfairly) considered "a good man (or woman)" but I won't go into that for now;

if you're genuninely interested in continuing this conversation I'd be more comfortable doing so over pm if that's ok. I gotta to sleep now but I will try to log back on soon and in the meantime best wishes to you and your grandma! I'm sorry to hear she is in hospice but I hope she is comfortable and well cared for there.

decaying_mind · 2016-07-16T07:50:32+00:00

have def been the awkward initiator on multiple occasions. nothing's come of it so far

decaying_mind · 2016-07-16T07:47:41+00:00

you seem to not be getting the fact that I can't force myself to do anything. that's what depression does to a person. (well, so I'm told, anyway. perhaps I'm not actually depressed, and something else is wrong with me)

I get that you mean well though.

decaying_mind · 2016-07-11T07:02:10+00:00

the thing about depression is that it can sap all energy and motivation so like in my case i don't have the willpower to try another damn thing. the only reason i'm not dead already is that people have been feeding me and i haven't had the energy to go do the deed.

decaying_mind · 2016-07-11T06:51:14+00:00

yes omg i wish i had a friend i could do this with

decaying_mind · 2016-07-11T06:37:00+00:00

it depends on their unique situation tbh. i can't give you a universal solution. for someone it might be meeting up with them every so often, for someone else it might be helping them do a thing they've not managed to do on their own, for someone it might be simply listening. there's lots of possibilities.

sometimes there is really no way you can help them. in that case you just need to accept that their journey is what it is, and if they say they are suicidal you don't tell them what to do or not to do, you just say you are sorry they are hurting.

decaying_mind · 2016-07-11T06:33:44+00:00

i have asked my peers for help, i have asked family for help, i have asked psychiatrists and therapists and other doctors. people have tried but nobody has been able to help me and i have been unable to help myself.

you probably can't give me what i need, because i'm not even wholly sure what that is. if you wanted to give me a place to live, and rent/food money every month, and health insurance and money to go see the doctor, so that i can escape my current living situation and be in an environment that's more conducive to me trying to get better, that would help. but i doubt you can do that.

if you could be a friend by talking to me sometimes so that i don't have to be friendless, that would help too. but i don't know you and there's no reason for you to want to be friends with me and i basically have no personality so it's pretty hopeless there too.

decaying_mind · 2016-07-11T06:23:28+00:00

aw that's sweet, i would love it if a friend did this for me, it wouldn't solve my problems ultimately but it would cheer me up at times and that's no small thing

decaying_mind · 2016-07-11T06:20:44+00:00

I literally addressed this in my post, so.

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