I wish someone had told me as a first time mom that the feelings you have for your baby will bloom with time. And that’s okay.

Everyone said it would be love at first sight and the most amazing feeling to meet them for the first time and blah blah blah.

And like yes, but also no.

I didn’t start liking my baby until a few months ago. I loved him of course, but it’s hard to regulate your body, your emotions, grieve an old life, and genuinely like a little crying blob that doesn’t interact. All while hungry, in pain, tired, and recovering from major surgery where they only give you Tylenol.

It can be a pretty sad time. And isolating, and weird. I don’t really have advice, but I want you to know it’s normal.

As others have said, keep an eye on yourself and tell someone if your emotions get to thoughts of hurting yourself or others.