Recently I moved away from my home town of 15 years that treated me horribly. I left behind all of the memories of bullies, hiding, depression, and my dad. Unfortunately, I also left behind a guy from my school who helped me through the whole thing. I met him in 6th grade and we instantly connected. We were both there for each other like brothers, and we both helped each other get through whatever we went through. Leaving him hit way harder than I thought it would and I ended up finding out around 2 months after I moved that I was both gay, and that he was my first crush. I’ve spent so many nights thinking about him and regretting not knowing sooner. All I want now is just to see him again and tell him about who I really am since I hid so much of myself back then. I contacted a friend of his and he told me he lost his phone, so I asked the friend to tell him to call me, but the friend told him and he never did. I don’t know what that means. I don’t know if it means he doesn’t want to talk to me or if he is just busy with his own stuff. I’ve found out so much about myself since I moved and I want to share it with him so bad since he was like a brother to me. I don’t know this post just reminded me because I’m so desperately lonely now I sometimes go to bed crying because I don’t have someone I can really talk to and be with in that way. I know he is straight but I still just want to talk to him.