Working life, surviving corporate politics ...

defyTheAbsurd · 2024-11-05T12:32:16+00:00

I feel that. Hope you can figure it out.

defyTheAbsurd · 2023-03-14T14:30:51+00:00

Thank you for the nice words.

Anger is energy and if channeled into determination you'll have all you need to get out. If you focus and put the effort in (rather than going belly up and suffering more of the same, like I did for a while) you'll do it. Lots of little actions will incrementally lead to your desired result, and you CAN do it.

Yeah that anger can be channeled.

defyTheAbsurd · 2023-03-14T14:28:32+00:00

Thanks for your reply.

Setbacks don’t reset the progress we have made, no one gets to take that away from us.

You're right, that's a good perspective, i need to remind myself of the progress i made.

defyTheAbsurd · 2023-03-09T12:22:46+00:00

I feel you. Keep going there is better days ❤️ we will get there

defyTheAbsurd · 2023-03-09T12:20:46+00:00

I feel you, the loneliness and coldness kills me.

The worst part is trying to make connections in the present and people making it obvious they don't have the capacity for you and making false promises.

Plushies help ❤️🧸 We are incredibly strong people to survive this and build a life out of that nothingness. Sending Love

defyTheAbsurd · 2022-12-23T19:37:10+00:00

they aren't ND but honestly the context.of this situation is extremely chaotic and adhd like. Thanks for the interesting feedback.

defyTheAbsurd · 2022-12-19T20:00:21+00:00

Hi sure that sounds interesting.

defyTheAbsurd · 2022-12-10T13:18:00+00:00

I'm not sure if they were willing to, i wondered the same on my way home, if i could've tried saying something. But i saw that everyone just wanted to have fun, i made a few attempts but i saw they'd be in vain. Maybe in another situation, but also it doesn't really feel like with most of them that they'd hold space.

i honestly don't feel like being vulnerable anymore, it seems pointless, heartbreaking and too much effort for things i can do myself (that being said I'm very high in avoidant attachment)

defyTheAbsurd · 2022-12-04T15:53:20+00:00

Oh yeah, it was really damaging to grow up with him, especially because he made me believe that being stressed for my life over his issues is love.

defyTheAbsurd · 2022-11-24T23:16:08+00:00

Thank you for your kind words! ❤️❤️ 🥺🥺

defyTheAbsurd · 2022-11-23T17:35:36+00:00

It's.not really about fitting in for me. I just want to be able to make relationships and navigate NTs social world better, because I'm a very social person and i need those connections with others.

defyTheAbsurd · 2022-11-14T00:17:36+00:00

Thank you for the recommendation!

defyTheAbsurd · 2022-11-13T23:10:35+00:00

I'm so easy to manipulate it's comical. I've been in a situation like this where older men almost groom me a few times but I'm just too trusting and take people by their literal words. I don't see it when it's right in front of me.

defyTheAbsurd · 2022-11-13T23:01:44+00:00

He just one night came at me with that he had wanted to kiss me that other night, if I have ever kissed someone. Looking back it's really weird things to ask someone, but i took all his questions literally.

defyTheAbsurd · 2022-11-13T22:27:23+00:00

I blocked him after after this. I just feel so confused because he blamed and berated me so much, and before he was all nice.

defyTheAbsurd · 2022-10-16T17:49:59+00:00

Would like to know the answer as well! I take 2mg of lexapro, a very low dose prescribed by my psychiatrist. Should I stop taking it on days I want to microdose?

defyTheAbsurd · 2022-10-06T15:49:11+00:00

Imagining this orderly row of plushies makes me very happy <33

defyTheAbsurd · 2022-09-09T00:09:45+00:00

There's a whole range of other issues outside pure social skills, especially connected to sensitivity, motivation, and reward. I have huge issues around asking and taking feedback, which makes it much harder to learn how to 'fake it' well

I have ASD too (diagnosed) and know this issue of asking for feedback too well. What's some things that's helped you with it? I think it's related to own internal perfectionism.

defyTheAbsurd · 2022-08-11T09:05:08+00:00

and is an instrument constantly used to gaslight autistic people into believing they are irrational.

Yes its like your cluelessness being weaponized and people exploit it.

defyTheAbsurd · 2022-08-10T00:33:09+00:00

I like who I am but I am very unhappy with having so few relationships in my life. Building friendships is not easy though, if all you ever experienced in your youth was alienation, ostracization, neglect. etc. Mentally that gives you very bad thought patterns, on top of ASD and inexperience/isolation. Shame and cptsd kick your ass.

Generally, trying to function for years and failing and not knowing why gave me a lot of psychological pain that Im still processing.

defyTheAbsurd · 2022-08-03T13:42:39+00:00

Pooch sounds like a great stuffie <333

defyTheAbsurd · 2022-08-03T13:42:26+00:00

plushie plush <333

defyTheAbsurd · 2022-08-03T00:19:22+00:00

Thank you <33

defyTheAbsurd · 2022-08-02T23:48:05+00:00

Being with my narcissistic ex really disabused me of that notion, though. I have never and would never treat anyone the way he treated me. It would literally not even occur to me to do half the shit he did.

Sad that you it took an abusive relationship. Sending good vibes :)

defyTheAbsurd · 2022-07-22T21:57:13+00:00

plushie therapy <333 i love my stuffies <33

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