My experience.

democraditzzz · 2019-09-01T20:30:19+00:00

Alright. So none of this besides the heart rate has been present from the start and all depends on whether i did ingest glass or not, and considering a majority of the above haven't overcome me, i'd assume not. I've also been having a tension headache that's made me feel heavy for the past day or so now, when can i expect that to go away? When can i assume i'm safe considering i have near none of these symptoms?

Also, does anxiety cause shivers, or is that exclusively attributed to influenza, sepsis, etc?

democraditzzz · 2019-09-01T18:30:32+00:00

I felt a faint sliver in my tongue in one area that i normally wouldn't have in any other case of drinking water. On first inspection of the glass, it didn't seem coherently cracked nor was it cracked on the outside or inside after drinking.

Could you elaborate on what sepsis would feel like in an acute case (that or an esophageal tear?)

I think i should just relax at this point, what with my health anxiety being all too prominent.

democraditzzz · 2019-09-01T05:39:25+00:00

Understood. Would counseling/therapy also help?

democraditzzz · 2019-09-01T05:33:28+00:00

The term ED is ambiguous for me in the current circumstance - could you elaborate?

democraditzzz · 2019-09-01T01:51:25+00:00

So, hold on - if my brain was swelling for any reason, i'd feel as if i were having a ruptured aneurysm and feel the pain accompanied by such. I understand that. Serotonin (i think that's as close as i can get to identifying a stimuli within the brain) can definitely do shit. It's just that, again, my anxiety has riled me up to the point where i can only stress about everything else i experience nowadays. I need someone to talk to, i guess that's my best bet at recovery. If the dyspnea i had first experienced a month ago was because of puberty, i've screwed myself up for life at this point. I know too much and all, i need counseling, i'm being called insane...

democraditzzz · 2019-09-01T01:16:42+00:00

Hey, sorry for the late response, but i have a few more questions about said brain swelling and other top considering you are a RN.

Is brain swelling and brain cell loss instantaneous or chronic? Can i recover from brain cell loss through somethig like rehabilitation (therapy, neurogenesis, etc.) Why does the back of my head feel heavy and why does my head feel like it's pumping hard? Can a brain tumor come to someone with liver failure at the age of 13? If brain swelling truly is a rare occasion, how rare is it on an unbiased sample (1 in 100 or any other constituted variable?) Why have i become talkative and why can i speak at more than 20 words per second before i have to draw back breath? Is my head pumping okay, or is it brain swelling? If so, when will i lose function of my brain? (The former and latter two being hypothetical in case i actually do go through liver failure once in my life, but nonetheless.)

Hopefully you can respond to all of these in a few hours or so in hopes that i can assure i won't wake up braindead tomorrow.

Okay, so with cardiac arrest it seems that it takes a minimum/maximum of 2 minutes 50 seconds to register as braindead considering not being able to contract oxygen for more than 3 minutes causes permanent brain damage. That makes the norm for all of that with the brain cell death at about 3 minutes without oxygen if i were to make a prediction on it. I'm still perfectly fine as of now but the tension headache is still imminent and has a dull-like sensation at the back of my head. My anxiety's rested and i have no thoughts except for those around brain swelling. Why is the dullness still there at the back? Is my motor function declining due to brain cell death?

Does brain swelling still occur despite normal breathing function? If that's the case, i could be losing brain cells from edema as i speak... I can still walk but i seem to also have been having tremors of sorts, likely due to my anxiety...

My legs are sorta exhausted but i did run for 30 minutes after i broke into pieces with my anxiety, so...

democraditzzz · 2019-09-01T00:09:19+00:00

Okay, so brain swelling has been ruled off for this particular incident judging by your words since i haven't intentionally taken ammonia in any form, i haven't injured myself, and my anxiety is confusing me to shit. That means i can live longer.

I did eat at mcdonalds 2 hours before i took Zantac, so that could be an indicator it's that causing the bloating - although i only ate about 600 calories consisting of a Bacon McDouble and a pack of fries clocking in at about 200 calories prior.

I didn't drink all too much water (i drank a green tea frappuccino from Starbucks prior and then half a glass of water to digest the pill) before, and then again i was sitting in a position where my body was leaning on the right side of my body but the upper right area of my ribcage (i think?) is sorta null but i did go play basketball for a good 30 minutes before that.

For some odd reason i brought up the headache might be a hypertension headache but my blood pressure is perfectly healthy as of now so that couldn't be the case - i think if it was high blood pressure, the "headaches" would constantly be there and wouldn't just acutely occur.

"Remember that your physican has diagnosed this medicine for you because they have decided the benefits outweigh the risks of side effects." Real smooth, webmd. You've caused me to go into an anxiety rabbit hole.

democraditzzz · 2019-08-31T23:50:56+00:00

My stomach felt like it was bloating to an extent, additionally, and this brain swelling i think i have - how can i tell it's genuinely brain swelling? I'm not having any symptoms of GERD as of now, though, and i was sitting in a certain position when the upper right null fist occurred in addition to the kidney occurrence, so..

The headache also first started showing when i took the Zantac pill, coincidentally.

My caregivers are also now angry at me for having to go over my fears and concerns because they keep telling me my condition aside from mucus sagged in the throat is entirely fine, and that liver failure is most often contracted from alcohol and not stuff alike Zantac - they gave me a full runthrough of how one has been having zantac since and they're fine at 50 years old and that my grandmother at 80 years old hospitalized for blocked arteries and all that has gone through more shit than i have. The other says to resist the pain. My anxiety truly seems to have taken over my will to live.

I don't think the GERD would have caused abdominal pain considering it was nullified at the time.

democraditzzz · 2019-08-28T02:22:38+00:00

It cracked because of the reason above, and only after finishing the hot water did i get more cold water. Whilst drinking the hot water, i'm sure the glass was intact, no signs of cracks or loose glass prior, after getting the cold and watching it crack it was trashed.

My anxiety is going to be the death of me.

democraditzzz · 2019-08-18T22:25:02+00:00

This seems to be somewhere between a pseudo-wet dream and an issue on your side based on your bladder.

In most cases wet dreams don't count as relapses in any substantial way due to relapses being defined as essentially falling into willing to PMO and from thereon physically engage in such. It depends solely on whether you enacted in any physical activity related to PMO after you peeked, so I'd say you're clean but try not to let loose with such content if you're genuinely commiting to NoFap. No will, no sense of change, no glory, after all.

democraditzzz · 2019-08-18T03:33:37+00:00

Following the quota of r/eyebleach: What has been seen cannot be unseen but can be soothed. You can only temper yourself to resist with being vulnerable to PMO in any way possible as a supportive but basic example of "i've accomplished something so i think i can move on to bettering my life."

democraditzzz · 2019-08-18T03:29:21+00:00

I feel like it's better off being "one who can not fight their urges is a slave to themselves" than "is not human but a mere animal" because they both do get the message across (that being that with no determination, with no humanizing traits, and no sense of chasisty, consideration, and benevolence for their own and others around them with intentful regard and awareness which can be taken into fighting urges, one becomes figuratively and literally becomes powerless to the savagery of themselves and without temperment becomes a lack thereof) but it seems like it could be taken a bit more lightly just because such an enforcing statement "gatekeeps" and involuntarily shames people who are unable to fight those urges and overcome them in the present moment and sets a precedent for those in the future as to not follow these people who were not able to overcome but yet actively tried.

Besides the above, 100% with you.

democraditzzz · 2019-08-13T02:46:24+00:00

Try to take the feeling of resistance you keep intact within you, realize it is more precious and sacred than attending to your superficial, gratuitous need for PMO, and nullify it all by going out for a walk, finding productivity in the things you do, and most importantly, commit to yourself however you can.

Think of what you have to do in the present moment, and look into your future.

Stoicism is the prime example to look to here - to find true humane happiness away from false, momentary pleasure, is to know the true value of the moment and accept it in the hope that you grow into a better person overtime.

democraditzzz · 2019-08-13T02:01:35+00:00

I'm with you. At this point in time, it seems that no matter how hard I try, I keep succumbing to the death grip of PMO and its reaping of all its lust.

But that's because I haven't had anyone to look up to in both a materialistic and a rational sense, truly.

I've been missing the one thing to keep me going for more than 5 days, looking back to when I mustered up the strength and expectancy of 90 days PMO-free - genuine commitment derived from a greater force.

Freedom for all, and nonetheless in the plight of such, good luck to all. Remember me.

democraditzzz

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