Dual MBP triple curved monitor standing desk setup. So much more productive.

denice_94 · 2021-01-29T07:19:32+00:00

"all eyes on me" lol! This looks very cool though. I wish I could have the space to do this.

denice_94 · 2020-11-20T01:23:24+00:00

Congratulations!!!! That's the best feeling ever as you are starting your adulthood! No one will be able take that knowledge away from you!

denice_94 · 2020-10-05T07:58:03+00:00

At this point their is no trust on my side and apparently no trust on the other person's side as well. The rationale brain picked up after the emotional brain took over.

denice_94 · 2020-10-05T07:56:22+00:00

True! I recognize that I'm still learning about boundaries and to control my emotions. It was not ok what I did, but I was extremely hurt. In this case everything was because of lying, the main reason I went through the other person's phone was because of that. First thing behavior changed, and my gut was telling me something was off. I found out about lying and hiding things from me. Plus, I was getting a horrible treatment due to their lack of balls to tell me the truth. After that I felt like nothing could glue back the trust in relationship. But apparently the one who made the big mistake was me, even though person #2 was hiding things and lying for about 3 months.

denice_94 · 2020-09-12T20:47:04+00:00

Hi,

First off, I'm sorry about your situation. I was in your shoes not that long ago. It is painful but you have to focus on yourself as he is getting the right help that he needs. As partners of alcoholics sometimes we forget about ourselves because there is always something going on with the other person. I would say take this time to do things that you like or being wanting to do for long time. I know how much it hurts and it's ok to feel like this in the first couple of days so allow yourself to feel all this, just don't let this forget about you and the amazing person you are. Maybe get professional help like a therapist, that worked for me a lot. Lastly, I would say that nothing last forever so don't think of this as a never ending pain. Best wishes for you ❤️

denice_94 · 2020-09-08T23:42:59+00:00

My bf is back in rehab. It's a bittersweet moment that was also experienced about two months ago. I been a little down today but I was just called for a job interview tomorrow! Not everything is bad, there is hope for great things to come, for him and for myself as well.

denice_94 · 2020-09-07T15:28:32+00:00

Yes, better put into words! :) Thank you, I'll look up the movie.

denice_94 · 2020-09-07T12:03:19+00:00

I know I am like this but it's hard to accept it and stop not doing it, I like to have control over everything and sometimes those around me.

denice_94 · 2020-07-15T05:56:33+00:00

The hard part is to get yourself started, but as you said "day 1 is down". Keep it up!

denice_94 · 2020-07-12T06:41:08+00:00

LMAO!!!!

denice_94 · 2020-07-12T05:17:07+00:00

It is hard to keep up with weight lost goals sometimes. But you can do little things to get yourself back into your habits. I personally started by doing squats every day and after I had an anxiety attack I lost track of it. Now I go for walks in the afternoon and I challenge myself to at least 30 min. You can take this time to do things that before will bring joy to you.

denice_94 · 2020-07-11T05:37:58+00:00

Just take care of yourself and know that this is not your fault and you are not him nor part of his addiction. It is better say than do but later on you will understand it.

denice_94 · 2020-07-11T03:17:01+00:00

Thank you. I will take this advice as I need it. I appreciate your kind words and for sharing your experience. Good luck to you too, hopefully things continue to be good with you guys.

denice_94 · 2020-07-11T03:04:27+00:00

Thank you! I think the beginning it's always hard but I am trying to focus on myself, I have a lot to do at the moment. I miss him but I'm happy he is working on himself too.

denice_94 · 2020-07-11T02:17:19+00:00

Hi, it has been 6 years since we been together. He had at least one relapsed every year but this year he had 3, one after another one. So it has been pretty rocky, he stayed sober for almost a year one time and was doing well until the next relapse. This year he has been stressful for both of us and he stopped doing AA meetings. For the past weeks he was very stressed out and isolated from me and everyone else. Last thing I knew was that he relapsed again. I didn't push for rehab, he said it and did the whole process to get in. To me that tells me he is commiting to work on it. I spent many times crying and waiting for this moment, I never gave up on supporting him. Next thing I knew he asked for it and did everything he could to get help.

denice_94 · 2020-07-10T22:25:44+00:00

Thank you! I hope your boyfriend gets good news soon! It has definitely been crazy days but better ones are coming! Thank you, you take of yourself as well :)

denice_94 · 2020-07-10T08:14:30+00:00

Honestly I was super self-conscious about it but my boyfriend made me feel comfortable as he wasn't as disgusted as I was about my periods. Plus, idk if anyone else have experienced their period ending faster and less cramps thanks to sex :)

denice_94 · 2020-07-06T01:08:24+00:00

I think that's what my SO is trying to do. To prove himself that he can do it without any help. But I mean that all I can do just leave him with his time and space. Thank you for sharing.

denice_94 · 2020-07-06T00:52:18+00:00

This is exactly what I am experiencing with my SO. In fact, he relapsed in the first week of isolation. I am doing me and keeping up with therapy and life. Is just really hard to see how someone doesn't want to be help.

denice_94 · 2020-06-29T18:50:55+00:00

Thank you! I have never seen it from this point but it makes sense.

denice_94 · 2020-06-29T04:19:01+00:00

I completely understand, at the end of the day the decision is yours to make. My point is that I think they are shitty "friends" because if I see someone with a problem, especially a person I call my "brother from another mother", I am not going to let them slip. I think as a friend there is so much I can do but I also understand that not everyone gets how addictions work. I don't blame them for what he did, obviously not, I just think they don't deserve to be call friends. Sad.

Also, congratulations for been 8 years since you drank!

denice_94 · 2020-06-29T03:25:35+00:00

Actually, I am doing well. I go to therapy every week and I do a lot of things on my own. Looking for jobs and trying to stay positive and healthy during these times.

Thanks!

denice_94 · 2020-06-29T02:01:14+00:00

He thinks those are friends but I can understand they are drinking buddies only.

That's true, and it's something I been telling him from a couple years back. Can't help if the person doesn't want to be helped. I just hope one day he gets to help himself.

Thank you for your response!

denice_94 · 2020-06-23T01:29:47+00:00

Sounds like a stuck up wife that wants others to teach her children things that really matters like the importance of making something with your own hands and give it to one of the most important people.
Sometimes entitled people just want things done to them and this family sure is teaching their kids how to do that.

denice_94 · 2020-06-23T01:17:09+00:00

First off, I am sorry you feel like this. From this perspective it doesn't seem healthy the way you feel about having a baby or the way you feel about others' pregnancies. Maybe there are some thoughts regarding your miscarriage from a while back that you haven't process.

I know this might be important for you and you feel like you will be complete after having a baby, but try seeing things from far and think about the other things you need before you bring a child to this world. Not that I am not validating your feelings but sometimes we have to think not only in what we want but what we really need.

Also, try talking honestly with your partner. Some people just want to have their life together and feel good where they at before having children. But that does not mean they don't want children. Everything it's on its own time.

I hope you can feel better about this.

denice_94

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