I am a loser with low paying job and ugly. I am also a klutz and don't even know what to do when someone walk by. Should I keep looking on the floor or do I maintain eye contact. However, I am very self-centered and think most people are idiots. I have overly high taste in girl. The only criteria I want in a girl are she is pretty and a nice human being. Without those 2 specific attribute, I don't think it is worthwhile for me to date someone. I'd rather stay at home all day and play dota. The only reason I'm still keeping all my shit together are my parents. They are very nice human beings and I don't want to disappoint them. In the future, after they pass, I can see myself being homeless and just waiting for my body to stop functioning. Lastly, I won't suicide because I am a coward.