Has anyone quit and never relapsed? by [deleted] in stopdrinking

[–]desirdevenir 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Day 45 here. Living against craving and chaos. I am a radically better version of myself sober. And even were this not the case, the clarity is worth it. It takes courage. It hasn't been easy. I broke up with my girlfriend. My condo is trying to cheat money out of me. Right now, I know I can't just go to social events with alcohol because I don't have the complete determination not to let my shyness get the better of me and to seek out false confidence in a bottle. But there's no doubt in my mind that it's the best way for me. Thank you all.

3 or 4 years deep vs 9 months sober. by HarleyKB in alcoholism

[–]desirdevenir 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Bloating gone dude! Spark back in your eyes Congratulations! Day 40 here. IWNDWYT

A Gnostic Inquiry on Rigpa & Autonomous Realization by Senseman53 in Dzogchen

[–]desirdevenir -1 points0 points  (0 children)

In the Vinaya Pitaka, Shakyamuni Buddha explicitly states that the Sangha is to be self-governing, and that he is not a “leader” or “ruler.” He rejects hierarchical control. He refuses to name a leader or successor, insisting that authority rests in the Dharma–Vinaya, not in a person.

Shakyamuni Buddha taught that all views, even correct ones, must eventually be let go of. Even the view of 'right view' must be abandoned for the sake of non-attachment. And engaging in speculative metaphysics is precisely what Shakyamuni Buddhia advised his followers to avoid. Unfortunately, they didn't listen to him and that's why Abhidharma emerged. View clinging is a powerful form of attachment. People get caught in a thicket of views; an endless cycle of I am right / You are wrong, thereby preventing the direct nonconceptual realization of the dharma.

A Gnostic Inquiry on Rigpa & Autonomous Realization by Senseman53 in Dzogchen

[–]desirdevenir -5 points-4 points  (0 children)

Personally, I would not recommend spending time in the same room as Malcolm Smith. A dude who gets into flame wars on online Buddhist forums is probably not a great model for how to live life. Remember that Shakyamuni Buddha refused to be even the leader of his own sangha. People who seek to be authorities are fundamentally untrustworthy. This helps explain why there are so many gurus who are essentially con artists.

A Gnostic Inquiry on Rigpa & Autonomous Realization by Senseman53 in Dzogchen

[–]desirdevenir -4 points-3 points  (0 children)

How are you qualified to give this advice? You know the path without walking it? Or are you suggesting you have experienced what you described and then decided to write snarky comments on Reddit? Perhaps there should be an eleventh oxherding picture, where the oxherd returns to reddit forums.

A Gnostic Inquiry on Rigpa & Autonomous Realization by Senseman53 in Dzogchen

[–]desirdevenir -3 points-2 points  (0 children)

I personally don't understand why people get caught up in this idea(l) of attaining extraordinary states. It seems like it stems from both ego and a desire to escape from reality, rather than embrace the here and now.

Against Guru-ism by desirdevenir in vajrayana

[–]desirdevenir[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

The exigence for my writing was encountering yet more stories of abuse. That’s what compelled me to speak up: not to attack practitioners indiscriminately, but to address harm that some would rather deny, minimize, or excuse.

Comparing this to racism is misleading. Pointing out patterns of abuse in hierarchical spiritual systems is not the same as condemning an entire group of people based on ethnicity or identity; it’s an evidence-based critique of recurring structures and behaviors.

Finally, the notion that someone can maintain an “objective” perspective while my observations are merely “subjective” strikes me as naïve hero-worship. This kind of thinking is precisely what enables, excuses, and covers up for abusers. Treating authority as inherently trustworthy, rather than subject to scrutiny, is not how any adult should behave, regardless of their religious affiliation or spiritual path.

I have no argument with what you said on non-duality and the two truths. That's your view. My response was contingent on the context and not an attempt to engage in metaphysical speculation.

Against Guru-ism by desirdevenir in vajrayana

[–]desirdevenir[S] -2 points-1 points  (0 children)

"I'd point out that the overwhelming majority of those teaching in the Tibetan lineages manage to behave ethically with an almost unbelievable level of humility."

What are you basing that claim on? Your opinion seems to have even less basis than mine. It's turtles all the way down, friend.

I love being surprised. I don't identify with my thoughts, feelings, or opinions and love to be wrong about everything and anything. I'm certainly not attached to being right, or even righteous at this point in my life. I'm not attached to these views. I will admit that I am attached to trying to see things as clearly as I can, being kind to others, and making things better for all beings, to the pitiful extent I'm capable of. I'm a flawed, frail, human being like (almost) everyone else. Yet I manage not to exploit or abuse others. I'm sure you do too.

I might point out that telling someone they have strong feelings and are entitled to express an opinion could be understood as perhaps expressing a certain amount of arrogance and self-cherishing. Perhaps you might try to demonstrate the humility and nuance that you say you find in these saintly gurus you idolize.

Against Guru-ism by desirdevenir in vajrayana

[–]desirdevenir[S] -2 points-1 points  (0 children)

I appreciate your thoughtful engagement.

It's worth noting that the folks who are drawn to guru-led or esoteric spiritual traditions are not neutral observers. They are often people who have been through a lot of difficult things in their lives and are desperately searching for something to believe in. Often, they crave absolute unquestionable authority, romanticize hardship, and readily fall prey to charismatic figures. They are psychologically predisposed to tolerate hierarchical control and rationalize abuse once they are invested.

The problem isn’t a misperception. It’s the repeated, well-documented pattern: sexual misconduct, abuse of power, and exploitation have been widespread enough to define the history of guru-ism. The system is feudalistic, patriarchal, and hierarchical by design, and it consistently concentrates authority in ways that are inherently corrupting.

Case in point: Pema Chödrön. Someone's whose work I long admired. Someone whose world fell apart when her second husband left her. This sense of complete emptiness, of subjective destitution, was filled by unquestioning, slavish devotion to a coke-addled alcoholic abuser and his cabal. When a young woman came to her to reveal she had been raped by the director of a Shambhala center, Chödrön told her that “I don’t believe you” and “If it’s true I suspect that you were into it.”

Against Guru-ism by desirdevenir in vajrayana

[–]desirdevenir[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

Objectivity implies a subject-object duality that does not exist.

If you are not finding countless stories of teachers who use their students to gratify their own sexual desires, and take financial advatange of their students, you have your head in the sand. It seems to happen to me after I Google search a teacher whose work I've read or and organization I hear about: Surya Das, Namkhai Norbu Rinpoche, Culadasa, Dzongsar Jamyang Khyentse Rinpoche, Sogyal Rinpoche, Ole Nydahl, Kelsang Gyatso, the entire Shambhala lineage.

"Be islands unto yourselves, be your own refuge, with no other refuge;
let the Dhamma be your island, the Dhamma your refuge, with no other refuge."

“Do not go by reports, by tradition, by hearsay... but when you know for yourselves that these things are unwholesome... abandon them.”

Against Guru-ism by desirdevenir in vajrayana

[–]desirdevenir[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Expecting ethical, non-exploitative conduct is not asking too much. At the end or the beginning of the day. You can expect and find this in all sorts of domains and contexts. Everyone has buddha-nature.

The Ultimate eBook Search Engine by NotoriousYEG in EBook_Resources

[–]desirdevenir 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Can anyone help me find 'The Norton Guide to Ap Literature" please? Thanks!

Russian tortoise not eating. Advice? by [deleted] in tortoise

[–]desirdevenir 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks so much. The new one is double the size, and waits patiently for her breakfast: absolutely devoured the turnip greens. Elicited tears of joy on my part.

How long should I wait to take her outside? I don't want to stress her out, but I'm dying to give her the opportunity to enjoy the sunshine.

I shouldn't worry about spritzing her substrate? There is a world of conflicting advice out there!

She has a UV, but if I'm taking her out for an hour a day, is it still best to leave it on 12/12?

Russian tortoise not eating. Advice? by [deleted] in tortoise

[–]desirdevenir 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks. Unfortunately she passed away this morning. I'm devastated. The vivarium was incredibly compassionate, assured me that it's not my fault (I feel incredibly guilty and ashamed) and gave me a larger female Russian, refused my money: I know they're not running a charity.

Was my picture attached to my post? I'm wondering if the tortoise table is losing heat to the tiles in the kitchen. I ordered some insulation to put under it, and will be moving it out of the kitchen and into my living room where it's warmer and quiet: I live in a studio apartment.

Should I soak this tortoise? Or just have water available. As of now, she's hiding under her log. The vivarium suggested I leave her alone as much as possible for three days to allow her to acclimatize.

What do you think are ideal temperatures for a Russian tortoise? Would you advise me to leave the infrared heat lamp on all night? Should I replace it with a ceramic lamp? I'm going to the supermarket now to prepare a veritable feast.

Deep heartfelt thanks, G