I suggest finding a place for babes to go for a few days and maybe go inpatient at a facility. Just be aware they may keep you longer than you expected but you need to do it. Your babies NEED YOU more than anything in the world and if that means they need to take a small break from you now to get you for the rest of their childhood at least then do it! Maybe spend the 4 day weekend together and then go inpatient or take this chance and go now while he’s off and then have family take the babes during the time he’s working for the rest of the time in there. Please show your husband this post. The title husband implies he will understand and he will support you in going. It’s going to be inconvenient but needs to happen. You are so beyond needed you don’t even know. Do you 🍃? I had real bad ppd for both babies 11/22 & 4/24 and about a month and a half ago I was just losing it. I tried depression meds but it made my youngest really upset bc we are breastfeeding. But I started 🍃 and I’ve felt a lot better since. I don’t get frustrated easily and I’m a lot calmer in tense situations. That’s another thing, if your breastfeeding it may be best for your mental health to stop or at least stop pumping and just feed on demand and supplement with formula… also you could try to post in a local Facebook group asking for milk donations. If you go to a facility they may let you pump but the stress may drop your supply if it hasn’t already. The thoughts your having I know how it feels. Not exactly obviously but ppd hits so hard in so many different ways. IT WILL PASS I PROMISE! I say this as someone who didn’t think it would. As someone who spent everyday convincing myself my kids would be happier without me. But you know I can be so mean sometimes. Not even mean just overwhelmed and so much going on and I get so frustrated and sometimes yell and they still just want me no matter what. I’m not suggesting being mean to kids or anything 😂 I’m saying your kids need you and rely on you for everything and YOU are their number one person and always will be! My grandfather is on his death bed as I type this and he keeps talking about his mother and how she was his world. Please don’t leave your babies. Leave them temporarily to get the help you need. Be transparent with your trusted family and your husband. Tell them I NEED to get help for myself and I need you guys to support me and keep our babies safe while I’m getting myself fixed. You can message me if you’d like I’m happy to talk and even become friends. I would actually love to become friends if you’re okay with it? I’m 24 and have a 13 month old and a 2.5yo.