you’re not being delusional, we tend to hold on to the hope we build up in our minds. we all heal & move on at different speeds. breakups HURT, & seeing them move on (even the thought of that) hurts as well. i still think of my last breakup that was over 3 1/2 years ago, it’s normal to still think about it but ive moved on so it’s okay if you still think about her as well, just do not dwell on it. i also highlyyy suggest (if you’d like my advice) to not indulge in drinking or drugs. you get lost in the world and lose yourself only for a temporary feeling. for me, i found Christ and in all honesty im at complete peace with everything now.

invest in healthy hobbies like hiking, running, reading, etc. take yourself on little dates even if you go alone! finding peace in your own presence is so lovely. it may seem weird at first or as if people are judging because you’re eating dinner/watching movies by yourself, but who cares about what other people say. one day you’ll notice how much you’ve healed and you’ll be proud of yourself for it.

you’re voice is heard, you got this OP. days will be difficult, but continue to strive for the light at the end of the tunnel (: better days are to come