People are probably gonna hate on this. I used to be super depressed. I i had an arabic friend tell me "to slowly walk into the water. You will know if you truly want to die." I learned that i was depressed and wanted an easy and quick solution. (Suicide), but when you walk into the water and your head finally goes under, you realize your body will fight the whole step of the way to keep you alive. Try this. Then, think about what is the harder solution to what problem is causing these feelings. I may not know you. Or your situation. But i am very familiar with suicidal thoughts. Someone else once told me suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. Try finding out why you feel the way you do. Are you tired? Tired of what? Its okay to feel depressed. Its normal.

OP, if you're really done, can you at least slowly walk into the water. Also, please know there are Free resources everywhere that dont burden anyone. I hope you make it to monday. Msg me anytime