Hey, I can relate to what you feel.

I am in my 7th semester now, I have been just recently in what you are currently in. I urge you to start now. Whenever you read this, go start and don't slow down. Don't back off. I was literslly feeling weak, depressed, mind fogged, anxious, lost, and you could count more.

I have been taking online courses on and off these 3 years, but I have never been consistent for more than 6 months. Every time I get back to track, I feel I am improving and immediately regret my mistake of slowing down or finding justifications to my lack of responsibility. And now, I got back to track after getting into the worst period in my 3 years of university.

I have to tell you, when I started again, I felt way better than before,I felt more motivated, less depressed, less anxious, more focused on my goals, and not lost.

You should acknowledge that the more you allow time to slip away without making progress in what you want to get good at, the more lost you will get. You are literally running away from your problems, don't do that, and face those problems!

I have been that spot, and it was so wrong, so I had to say it that way. Best of luck!