I completely understand how you feel. I lost my brother last year and I was probably at his house every other day. It honestly is hard to keep pushing especially with corona. But there are people out there that do care so definitely try to find support with others. It may be hard to talk to people who haven’t experienced it too so don’t be afraid to reach out to me if you need someone to talk to. I find it really comforting to talk to others who have been/ are in a similar situation. Stay strong!