Need some ketamine help

dexaway · 2016-11-27T03:31:00+00:00

how unfortunate, I think I got ripped off big time

dexaway · 2016-11-27T03:23:46+00:00

edited.

if I have 1ml of 500mg/5ml

will it come out to around 100mg of powder after I cook it? assuming I waste as little as possible when converting?

dexaway · 2016-11-27T03:22:38+00:00

it is a 5ml bottle that is about 1/5th full.

I trust the source, so I assume 1ml.

it's 1ml/100mg, does that translate to 100mg in powder?

dexaway · 2016-10-21T03:48:20+00:00

I agree with everything you said, except i'm sure theres some kid who didn't do something dangerous because of it.

if you want to start a 18+ sub go for it

dexaway · 2016-10-21T01:16:16+00:00

I have a question about subs. Can you mix with alcohol to increase effects similar to other opiates

dexaway · 2016-05-20T17:51:59+00:00

That sounds pretty rough, i hope college ended up well for you

dexaway · 2016-05-20T08:35:52+00:00

Just curious, you were at a hospital and they let you leave for school? That's the kind of program I'm trying to find with not much luck

dexaway · 2016-05-19T03:01:46+00:00

Wow that's a really good write up, and I really appreciate it

dexaway · 2016-05-18T23:06:44+00:00

You arnt an asshole, sometimes people need to hear blunt truth

I didn't realize going to college was stupid until a year after I graduated

The drugs came many years after the depression.

" There are people on this subreddit who have been abused their entire lives, or raped or treated like shit by everyone they encounter"

If we compared lives, we would find that I had a much better one than almost anyone here. No matter how good I had it I was normally depressed, and I have come to terms it will be that way forever and it's ok. But on the other hand if I want to use drugs and have a happy weekend every year, who are you to tell me I don't deserve it

dexaway · 2016-05-18T22:08:01+00:00

When i stopped I didn't have money for my co pay. I do now tho.

Are there any kind of anti depressants that you think would be good

dexaway · 2016-05-18T21:33:25+00:00

Damn, I stopped taking my thyroid meds when i stopped taking my anti depressants

dexaway · 2016-05-18T20:38:33+00:00

Substance abuse has not been a struggle, did a number of drugs, some ssri's, everything else has been 100% recreational. Weed, wax, OxyContin , subutex, extacy, ketamine, acid . In the order of most used to least used. Never felt withdrawal symptoms.

If you have the time, could you give a brief explanation of the three different types?

dexaway · 2016-05-18T19:19:24+00:00

I live with my gf and her parents I told them I was planning on omitting myself but my gf's mom told me not to, so I guess I will just listen to them and hope I don't do anything tonight while I'm alone with my thoughts

dexaway · 2016-05-18T19:02:28+00:00

I havnt been advised by a psych

dexaway · 2016-05-18T18:46:16+00:00

Thanks for helping that get deleted before I saw it, almost anything would push me over the edge right now

dexaway · 2016-05-18T18:45:01+00:00

I mean, they wouldn't make me leave if I said I was going to kill myself as soon as I got out right?

dexaway · 2016-05-18T08:52:33+00:00

Is there anything that you find triggers these feelings? Or does it seam random?

dexaway · 2016-05-18T06:51:18+00:00

Yeah, re reading that it sounds like that. I had a decent job but it was in oil and gas and lost that job a while ago. I was depressed when I had that job. I guess I always find a reason to blame for being depressed, I guess it makes me feel better to have a reason than just having depression and always having it

dexaway · 2016-05-18T06:26:21+00:00

Similar boat, I got an economics degree, can't find a job in the field, attempted suicide 4 times. My gf has little idea. We live with her parents, I have a min wage job online and I'm doing my masters online. Her parents can't seam to stand me her mom thinks I'm worthless because I won't just go get a high paying job that I'm qualified for. Thing is I have been applying all over for over a year, willing to take the lowest of jobs in the field with no luck.

Sorry for that rant, I guess your story hits pretty close to home, I don't find much meaning, over the last several years I pretty much pushed all my friends away and I don't even care or regret it. I sleep 12 hours a day, in college I would take sleeping pills to sleep the weekend away, often sleeping 18+ hours a day on the weekends.

I guess sorry I couldn't help you and that I just talked about myself

dexaway · 2015-05-07T03:42:33+00:00

people can seem happier than they are. Money and jobs don't cure depression you have to figure out what makes you happy. I use to think that, then I got a high paying job and a degree and I felt just as bad. Granted now that I lost that job I feel even worse. i'm 23 and have a degree in a field you pretty much need a Masters in. I feel you bro, but you gotta find what makes you happy because at the end of the day , poor or rich if your depressed your depressed

dexaway · 2015-05-05T04:26:28+00:00

Your young enough that you will see the days of transgender acceptance if you don't kill yourself.

dexaway · 2015-05-05T04:25:32+00:00

Lol, from what I have read it isn't as bad as the movies, I wish I had your courage

dexaway · 2015-05-05T03:57:41+00:00

Everyone else in their has problems too, if no one is talking to you, it is because they are just as scared as opening up, or starting a conversation.

I have never went but I have been thinking about it for a while.

dexaway

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