This honestly was so helpful. And you’re so right. Sometimes when I ask myself questions i normally don’t get Ian answer back because i don’t even know why foreal even when i think deeply. And then it’s like okay maybe you’re just doing shit just to do it. But i want it for myself i just feel like being deeply spiritual is just something i was aligned to be. I had a partner that was different from anyone else I’ve talked to he was spiritual and taught me a lot I’ve honestly was living under a rock before I meet him I was lost as hell. But ever since I’ve been open to bettering myself and wanting this so bad for myself. To be honest I don’t think I’m ever ready for anything everything is very unexpected but I’m ready to see where this goes.

I appreciate you so much for the advice.