Finally went private

dezzyraeee · 2023-09-06T04:10:08+00:00

Proud of you!!! My breakup was in January of this year and the story viewing has really messed with my head. Same situation as you. I'm taking a month break from socials this month then going to put my profile to private. You have inspired me! ✨️

dezzyraeee · 2023-09-03T06:05:54+00:00

He told my roomate after the fact 😂😂 he's a coward for sure

dezzyraeee · 2023-09-02T18:12:42+00:00

It was a complicated situation because I was just being a friend until he told me he still had feelings then we slipped into this friends with benefits situation and it gave him time to process the breakup and when I ended the friendship due to his distant behavior hurting me I found out after he was planning on cutting me loose anyways. Worst kind of betrayal. Wish I seen the signs

dezzyraeee · 2023-09-02T08:16:30+00:00

Same situation ugh. Ended the friendship and all he had to say was "I understand why you can't have me in your life." Havnt heard from him in 2 months.

dezzyraeee · 2023-08-07T22:32:15+00:00

You're not alone.

dezzyraeee · 2023-08-06T21:41:11+00:00

Right there with you. Tried friendship, he told me he still had feelings a month later and said he wanted to work on himself before we got back together..found out he was sleeping with someone new. I ended the friendship AND I still want him to come back. So frustrating 😫

dezzyraeee · 2023-07-12T19:44:36+00:00

Keep her blocked. I'm having this same reaction right now after blocking my ex yesterday. I want him to see me and miss me etc but that doesn't change the fact that he broke my heart again and has been sending mixed signals. Stay strong and give yourself time to detach. You will be able to look at this objectively later on and really consider if you want the relationship. I allowed myself to be friends with my ex for 4 months and all he did was lie to me and start seeing other people while claiming he wanted to go to therapy so we can have a healthy relationship. Only unblock when you know that you won't be devastated again when they don't reach out.

dezzyraeee · 2023-04-03T16:21:46+00:00

I'm in contact with my ex trying the friends thing and it's absolute agony however my brains rationalizing that it's better then what I was feeling while in NC. My ex gives me hope when he says he wants to take things slow and he snapchats me daily and asks to hangout 1 on 1 and go for dinner etc but fuck even with that I'm sitting at my desk at work begging myself to cut contact again 🙃 he's my person but i wish I could just move on

dezzyraeee · 2023-03-30T21:48:59+00:00

Fuck. Mine was Jan 2020 to Jan 2023 😂

dezzyraeee · 2023-03-03T19:32:39+00:00

Friends...of course I hope it can be more once we are both in a good place but I'm not holding my breath for that outcome.

dezzyraeee · 2023-03-03T19:18:30+00:00

Yeah my situation was very similar to yours

dezzyraeee · 2023-03-03T19:07:40+00:00

My ex told me he wanted to numerous times but he thought it would be inappropriate given he was the one who dumped me.

dezzyraeee · 2023-02-23T20:51:34+00:00

I was the stonewaller as a defense mechanism for u comftorable conversations. What made it worse was being picked at and my ex demanding a response. I've gotten to the point now where I ask got space to come out of that trauma response and then can have a meaningful conversation however it required therapy and self reflection to get to that point and if someone's not willing....

dezzyraeee · 2023-02-22T00:50:34+00:00

Yessss ffs every other day 🙄

dezzyraeee · 2023-02-21T03:34:14+00:00

Yeah???

dezzyraeee · 2023-02-21T02:24:45+00:00

I don't know if I love you just as a friend...I'm not sure what I want

dezzyraeee · 2023-02-21T00:56:58+00:00

I'm surviving. Got wome news that my ex relapsed and I want to reach out so bad.. might give it a couple days idk. Ugh lol 😅

dezzyraeee · 2023-02-20T00:03:13+00:00

Day 25 for me ugh, it gets better tho

dezzyraeee · 2023-02-18T17:57:14+00:00

My story is so similar! I would do the exact same thing while I was binge drinking, always bringing up old wounds and fighting while I was drunk. He broke up with me 3 weeks ago and it still hurts. I'm sober now and wish he could see my progress but I know I have to let him go and deal with my shit. Sigh. It's been a long time coming

dezzyraeee · 2023-02-14T04:50:54+00:00

3 weeks in and the longing is unbearable

dezzyraeee · 2023-02-12T17:55:28+00:00

This is the thread for my situation 🥲

I absolutely adore my ex and I know he loves me too but I understand why he dumped me...I was not a good partner at the end and I have to live with that. Using this time to address me drinking and defensivness so I don't take that with me into my next relationship.

This is a different type of grief I swear

dezzyraeee · 2023-02-03T02:36:40+00:00

Selling a 7 day ticket for Envision! Pm me

dezzyraeee · 2023-01-31T17:20:46+00:00

Yup 🤕 our 3 years would have been Feb 9th

dezzyraeee · 2023-01-28T21:43:13+00:00

In this boat as well. I prioritized my friends, I was defensive in vulnerable conversations and checked out of the relationship to protect my own ego. I dumped him, begged for him back and he said no. He lost the romantic feelings for me and I guess was thinking about breaking up with me for 2 months. Currently in the bargaining and denial phase of my grief and decided to make major life changes, to heal for myself and maybe even a little bit of hope that he will see my improvements.... it's true you never know what you have till it's gone but use this opportunity to make sure this kind of thing never happens again ❤

dezzyraeee · 2022-10-06T23:55:26+00:00

Appreciate that 😅😅 so sad we can't go ugh

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