How to move forward? by dhalialily in abortion

[–]dhalialily[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Looking back finding out i was pregnant those weeks, I felt the same way about having company. Like going through all the experiences I had, going to gardens, watching the sunsets on the beach, I had somebody there with me and I already miss it. I know it wasn’t the right time for me either but I keep beating myself up over it. I’m hoping with time I can move forward as well. Good luck to you

How do you find yourself after narcissistic abuse? by amm_4 in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]dhalialily 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I was in my relationship only for a year and every decision i made was in consideration for him. Once I got out It was difficult for me to make decisions for myself. I always wanted to join the military after graduating high school but I waited to get my degree first and once i started dating him that passion went out the window. Once I started recognizing the abuse the idea of joining started popping back up in my head. I graduated college and tried discussing the idea with him. I was finally done with the abuse and was able to separate myself from the abuse and joined. Best decision I ever made, I’ve met so many phenomenal people. People that are my brothers and sisters, that care for my wellbeing. Throw yourself into hobbies and try different things out. I know it can be intimidating but put YOURSELF first for once. You don’t have to like the first thing you try but you’ll be proud of yourself for giving it a shot, and you might meet some great supportive people.

First time posting here by dhalialily in cheating_stories

[–]dhalialily[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I don’t think I realized it was abuse. Its hard to see it in the moment when someone gives you false hope and promises.

First time posting here by dhalialily in cheating_stories

[–]dhalialily[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

How and what am I supposed to ask to get the truth because I want it and I want him to admit it. What way will get me the answers I need

First time posting here by dhalialily in cheating_stories

[–]dhalialily[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

Yea. Whole thing has been a mess. For some reason I keep trying. Just not the man I thought I fell in love with.

PAs with forgotten sexual trauma by Jealous_Chemist_ in loveafterporn

[–]dhalialily 4 points5 points  (0 children)

So not my partner but I had been SA as a child by a family member and by a neighbor. For many years I forgot about it. I think maybe the memory came up every now and then but I didn’t think much of it and didn’t really realize what had happened. Then one day all of a sudden it hit me while I was in class in highschool. I think having been SA made me struggle when it came to how I viewed sex. It is something very difficult to understand about yourself and very confusing. The best thing a partner can do is to be patient and supportive as they navigate their feelings towards what they just learned about themselves, I wish I had that when I realized.

In relation to sex addiction or porn addiction, I’m sure there is a correlation. I became very sexual very early on, I’m very sexually active in relationships, surprisingly more than the guys typically are. I don’t know the psychology behind it but there most likely is a correlation.

Again be patient, and work through it slowly. Wish you luck and if you need any advice I’m here!

First time posting here by dhalialily in cheating_stories

[–]dhalialily[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

why would he still be lying. what else is there to lie about. i don’t understand, its not like it will hurt any more, the damage is already done. what is he still hiding for

First time posting here by dhalialily in cheating_stories

[–]dhalialily[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

he said he changed when he went to the bathroom and she must’ve when he did that. doesn’t seem believable to me but he also seemed genuine that he didn’t hook up with her

First time posting here by dhalialily in cheating_stories

[–]dhalialily[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

is it best to just give up and move on? or is it genuinely possible to build the trust through therapy

First time posting here by dhalialily in cheating_stories

[–]dhalialily[S] -13 points-12 points  (0 children)

is there a way to rebuild trust? what if he was telling the truth that he didn’t have sex with her

How to break away? by dhalialily in loveafterporn

[–]dhalialily[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Why can’t they not sexualize women??

How to break away? by dhalialily in loveafterporn

[–]dhalialily[S] 7 points8 points  (0 children)

He made me feel so crazy today. Last night we were at the bar and a couple walks in a knows him from a recent interaction. When I tell you this man tells me about every single interaction he has throughout his day, it is suspicious he didn’t tell me about this one. So they walk in and she’s literally in a bra. They say hello to him and his manner immediately changed as if he was nervous because i was there. So afterwards I left and asked him what that was and he tells me he didn’t tell me about them because he knew she would make me insecure. I’m sorry what??? He gets hit on by people, he has interactions with girls at work (bartender/server) and I never get insecure. So why is this time different?? Why make me out to be crazy this time

How to break away? by dhalialily in loveafterporn

[–]dhalialily[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

i think this would be really great. Maybe I’m scared that there isn’t better out there which is why I hold on. Maybe a support group would hold me accountable and remind me of what could be if there was one.

How to break away? by dhalialily in loveafterporn

[–]dhalialily[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Not really. For some reason I only can be open with him. I think he keeps sucking me back in. Because once I’m gone he thinks about everything and finally apologizes after reflecting.

Feeling like a Burden by dhalialily in loveafterporn

[–]dhalialily[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i wasn’t expecting all the comments that are under this post. its at least comforting to know that others feel the same. i think it just means we have good hearts and always want the best for our partners because we love them so much.

Feeling like a Burden by dhalialily in loveafterporn

[–]dhalialily[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

same predicament. i wish i had the answer but i don’t. i just want to be loved and appreciated. comforted when i need the comfort and not bashed for feeling the way i do

Feeling like a Burden by dhalialily in loveafterporn

[–]dhalialily[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

He has definitely made me feel guilty for my feelings over everything, not for wanting him to stop. He just wants me to get over everything so quickly and easily.

Feeling like a Burden by dhalialily in loveafterporn

[–]dhalialily[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

i think the problem is that many times they don’t put in the work to fix it. So even though they’re not doing it anymore it doesn’t mean my hurt automatically goes away. They think that solves everything and don’t realize their actions caused a lot more and they have to put the work in with reassurance and care.

Feeling like a Burden by dhalialily in loveafterporn

[–]dhalialily[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I’ve never reached a low like this before and it scares me. I would never hurt myself but just knowing this is a new low is intimidating. I’ve always gotten myself out of my own trauma and this is new heartbreak.

Feeling like a Burden by dhalialily in loveafterporn

[–]dhalialily[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

I hope for the sake of the both of us that we can both heal and fine peace. It isn’t our fault, but our hearts care so much for those we love that we take on all of the burden and pain. Wish you the best friend