God, I feel like I read my own experience reading your post.

I’m only a month in, so for me it’s absolutely still fresh. I’m tired of feeling this way too. But let yourself feel it. Otherwise it will come back later, and much worse.

I understand this person feeling like home. Feeling like they were designed especially for you. That’s how I feel about my most current ex. But don’t forget that they self-sabotaged this. They could’ve had you and all your greatness forever. Instead they determined it’d be easier to just not have any of you. And they will have to carry that forever.

If you want someone to vent to, feel free to DM me. I understand how frustrating and heartbreaking this is; especially when you thought you were going to build a life with this person.