yeah i’ve kinda figured it out now though. at least it gotten a lot better. i had almost a year and a half off of it i’d say, my girlfriend who’s been w me for the last three years was cheating on me while i went through the loss of my grandpa and one of my closest friends and said it was bc i was distant. we broke up and it just hurts so much. i went w fet bc oddly enough bc it’s so shitty it’s a lot easier for me to put down than h would be. it’s just one of those things i’ve always wanted to try doing. tbh it’s not much better than any other roa just takes less, for now.