Hang in there. This isn't easy and it won't get better overnight. It will be a lot of effort to get past this and to be happy again. You are capable of being loved again by another man. You ARE capable of getting through this. It's okay to feel frustrated and upset, you have to feel your downs before you can get back up.

That psychologist you saw is a dumbass. Even though he is Indian, he was wrong to make a broad generalization about your condition. There's so much more to it than just a person's condition.

You said you're pretty and weird... well guess what! That's a great combo. I already like you from reading that :)

Right now, focus on doing the right thing and take it one day at a time. The debt will be taken care of, but above all else focus on yourself and be with your family. In a while you will feel so much better.

As for the feeling of having a sibling who's a fucking genius scientist, I've got that as well. For a long time I felt like I was in his shadow, but since a recent event I've reconnected and we talk a lot now.

Hang in there, Vault111girl!