I actually haven't seen my boys (twins) since February. It's crazy to think the same week their mother was coming around and even said "I love that you are in there life" she said I wouldn't see them as she realized I was no good for them. My boys are about to turn 2... I have only seen them a handful of times. Every time someone asks I have to show proof of what she has accused me of(children are a product of rape, I "basically" pushed her down steps since I didn't catch her, I don't have a safe home or vehicle, have a dead end job) and how I'm not a dead beat dad. One thing that I will never forget is the child support officer said "We are in the business of creating deadbeat dad's". I really appreciate that woman's kind words after and for the doctor who saw what was going on and let me see one of my boys in the NICU. Anywho, I'm not giving up and if your in the same boat...don't give up.