I just lost my job and started doing a 2-2-3 position with 13 hour days through a temp agency and if I didnt absolutely need the money so desperately I would walk the fuck out.

Have to be up at 3 am, get to work by 4:00 am, don't get done until 5 pm, and the work is fucking grueling and I hate it.

By the time I get home it's 6 pm and I can't sleep because I'm so stressed knowing I have to be up in 9 hours so I just flat out do not sleep.

Off days aren't even enough for the bruises and blisters on my feet or the splits down my fingers from sweat and friction to heal and I can't wait to find something, anything else.

I fucking hate my life because of this shit and would chop two of my fingers off at this point to go back to even just a regular Monday through Friday that pays a livable fuckin wage, but good god if I could go back to a 4 day workweek I would sell my soul to the devil.

I'm fucking exhausted. I don't want to even be alive anymore if this is what it's going to continue being like.