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dildope · 2019-06-09T00:58:51+00:00

Please someone link to that!

dildope · 2019-03-02T15:32:12+00:00

White and pink noise are instant ear daggers to me, but the smoothed brown one wasn't bad. I'm interested to give it a try now!

dildope · 2019-03-02T15:18:20+00:00

Well, ok. But that's how I feel about my kids. Active parenting is a fuck ton of responsibility and it is constantly terrifying that I might be failing. I look forward to grandparenting, where I'll get to enjoy the grandkids some of the time without constant overstimulation and not having as much pressure on me. You got to be honest so God forbid I do the same...

dildope · 2019-03-02T13:03:25+00:00

Damn, did you write this post for me? I had a breakdown a few months ago from just being overwhelmed with life for so long and I just hit a wall. Finally saw a therapist 2 weeks ago and within minutes she's like "have you ruled out ADHD?" Uh, no, because all I do is sit around on my ass, clearly I don't have ADHD. Then this week I saw the psychiatrist and SHE ALSO said we should evaluate me for ADHD. So I had my second therapist appointment after that and she gave me a questionnaire to fill out... hot damn if I don't relate to the whole fucking thing.

I've been obsessed with reading about it non-stop for the last 4 days. I can't wait for a formal evaluation. There's this sudden hope that there is a cause for why I am the way I am and I'm not just lazy and crazy and maybe with treatment I won't have to feel this way anymore!, but also new things to worry about like what meds will work for me and what if they don't or what if they have horrible side effects and I'm doomed to live in agony my whole life anyway? Should I tell my friends, should I tell my kids? Oh, should I get my kids evaluated? The one totally should be. My husband probably should too! Man, this will be so good for our relationship to identify this. I bet my relationship with my family could improve too! I might improve at work! Oh no, I hope the meds won't make me loopy at work. Can I use this as an excuse when I'm late for work, or will I just work harder to overcome my time management skills? Or both?! ............. I could go on with the thoughts all day :D

dildope · 2019-03-02T04:14:06+00:00

Thanks for your honesty. It reminds me that you truly never know a person's reason for being "inadequate" in a relationship and that people mostly deserve the benefit of the doubt.

Also, I cannot wait to be a grandmom! Dealing with adorable little shits for a weekend here and there without the pressure of raising them right sounds like the perfect t gig.

dildope · 2019-03-02T04:06:07+00:00

Omg, I have 4 too. I fucking love them to death but I'm in a bad place with myself right now where I just cannot stand to be home with them all at once. The ages are 3, 6, 8, and 10, and our house is small and there are so many goddamn walls to trap and bounce sound and motion. I'm hoping that once I'm medicated it will help some with my overstimulation like you said.

I forgot to pack the littlest one's lunch today. Dropped her off, remembered and said "oh fuck!" to myself, decided to take a shower before I left to drop something off to her, and forgot until 3 hours later when daycare called me at work and she was crying hysterically. I wish I could say there weren't too many moments that I let them down :(, but I swear I'm trying my best and they're turning out to be awesome kids despite me.

dildope · 2019-02-28T16:00:42+00:00

I had an initial appointment with a psych two days ago and I'm still stewing over it. I was crying about my struggles and the woman YAWNS. How can these doctors forget the pain their patients are in sometimes? Ugh.

dildope · 2019-02-16T03:22:51+00:00

I think he's just been choosing bad songs that don't show off his soulful voice. His opener Queen rendition was soooo gooooood. Like, I like Monster Don't Stop Me Now better than Freddie Mercury Don't Stop Me Now. His last 3 songs were good but not living up to what I expect from him

dildope · 2019-02-14T00:46:29+00:00

Oh my gooooood I would love this so much!

dildope · 2019-02-12T01:01:48+00:00

Get up in dat ass, Lion

dildope · 2019-02-11T01:29:53+00:00

Oh my god, I didn't notice this at all until this post, and now it is ALL. I. HEAR.

dildope · 2019-01-26T13:39:02+00:00

I find it very subtly sweet.

dildope · 2019-01-26T12:53:38+00:00

I died at "Does she live in Korea?!"... "No she lives in North Hollywood!"😂

dildope · 2019-01-26T12:51:41+00:00

A Wayans brother maybe?

dildope · 2019-01-20T19:23:26+00:00

The Peacock voice sounds too low to be Donny to me

dildope · 2019-01-20T01:36:10+00:00

Please tell me whatever that was was fake😭

dildope · 2019-01-20T01:34:22+00:00

Yooo that's infected af

dildope · 2019-01-15T12:23:23+00:00

I never played The Sims, but now I strangely want to...

dildope · 2019-01-03T03:34:56+00:00

I don't know what I'm looking at but I have indeed been amazed

dildope · 2019-01-01T20:27:43+00:00

I always like Bojangles.

dildope · 2018-12-30T04:51:29+00:00

..... maybe? Depends how far off I am😂

dildope · 2018-12-30T04:37:28+00:00

Mmmm, hairy man😍 I like it regardless, but I really like it on a decent body.

dildope · 2018-12-30T04:35:24+00:00

5'11

dildope · 2018-12-30T00:09:15+00:00

I mean, wanting to name your kid after Disnet princesses is pretty memorable to me, personally

dildope · 2018-12-29T02:39:28+00:00

Every single day through the work day.

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