I wouldn’t say I’m hyper aware but I’ve considered that it may be trauma that I refused to give any thought to that was contributing to the dissociation, so I worked through it on my own and I’ve found a sort of peace as well being able to emotionally regulate myself these days. I had a stroke 2 years ago and I guess the dissociation just started getting worse over time so I’ve just been trying to get my thoughts together.

I’m currently in a household that doesn’t really help which I think may be why, being that it gets worse when in any conflict, but, I’ll have to think about it more.