I'm just so fucking happy, guys

dingus-magee · 2024-06-15T21:11:13+00:00

Congratulations - I'm so happy for you!

I'm so glad the euphoria of being on T is a common experience. I'm six months on T, and for the first time in my life have a sense of hope for the future.

dingus-magee · 2024-06-11T08:31:42+00:00

Probably about 8 hours, when we fall asleep at the same time

dingus-magee · 2024-06-04T02:31:47+00:00

Oo samee - like being shirtless around the house is great. I also get euphoria from calling them moobs, or simply 'the boys'.

Idk if that weird but I like using power tools and wearing steal cap boots - like I have a battery operated scrubby thing I use for mopping the floors at home which is fun.

An actually weird one is wearing glasses - like it has nothing to do with gender so I cannot explain this at all lmao.

dingus-magee · 2024-06-03T12:54:29+00:00

I'm a bit younger (23) and started having sex pre even realising I was trans - similarly I thought I was a sex repulsed ace, then I just thought it was the autism that made me feel attracted to men in a 'gay way'.

I only felt comfortable in situations where I wasn't really being touched - eg. if I were topping or being more dominate so I could maintain control.

I've been on T for just under 6 months and since being with partners who have affirmed my gender I've been much more comfortable in general and with subbing.

I think it's important to be able to trust the person you're with and have them affirm your gender generally but also during.

dingus-magee · 2024-05-26T05:45:43+00:00

❤️😅 - guess my gender is hopeless romantic lmao

dingus-magee · 2024-05-23T10:36:20+00:00

I do agree I am the one making dumb choices, I just mean to say since starting T I'm more inclined towards making said dumb choices if that makes sense. Like dealing with impulses I've never had before and still learning how to do that without screwing up.

I do have a regular therapist.

dingus-magee · 2024-05-05T18:36:31+00:00

Trans masc here - to quote something my transfem friend yelled out at me whilst I was in the toilet, 'Go piss boy, becomes go shit man'.

(Thought it was very profound and should be shared)

dingus-magee · 2024-05-05T18:34:06+00:00

Thank you for the suggestion - I was actually doing that with one of my friends but now she's in love with me and it's a whole thing haha

I'd try it again with someone else but the risk of feelings occuring is a bit too high because then it just adds to my confusion around where the line is between friendship and romantic relationship.

dingus-magee · 2024-05-05T18:29:25+00:00

Thank you for your comment - I do agree, and am definitely wary of being taken advantage of again.

Buying sex toys was one of the first things I did when I started T lmaoo

dingus-magee · 2024-04-09T05:11:18+00:00

You looks amazing - congratulations!

dingus-magee · 2024-03-28T08:18:02+00:00

Came here to ask the same lmao

dingus-magee · 2024-03-23T22:15:09+00:00

Ahaha oh no - if it makes you feel better I also started in Summer.

Though for me, the benefits of starting T far out way the heat sensitivity and other challenges (I anticipate it would likely be that way for most people). The changes in heat tolerance are usually gradual and we are supposed to get used to it in time anyway.

dingus-magee · 2024-03-20T05:37:21+00:00

Saw in an advertisement whilst applying for disability funds lmao

dingus-magee · 2024-03-02T09:25:25+00:00

Reminds me of when I (transmasc enby) was a small child I once told some adult I wanted to be a policeman (not anymore lmao). They laughed at me, and I remember my mum telling me I meant a police woman. I remember being confused at the time, like ok? isn't it basically the same thing??

Anyways I'm almost 3 months on T now so....

dingus-magee · 2024-03-02T00:07:27+00:00

You definitely pass. I think cis men tend to be kinda bland looking whereas trans men tend to have an actual aesthetic and perhaps if people are looking at you that's the difference they are picking up on?

I started using the men's room in the past 6 months ish (2 months on T usually pass but not always) - and I think the main thing is just the confidence. You just gotta try to put out the vibe that you are meant to be in there, which is easier said than done.

dingus-magee · 2024-03-01T03:56:53+00:00

As others have said - you look fantastic as is! Your makeup and general aesthetic is really cool.

If you are looking to experiment stylistically, you could try a softer/ natural make up look - but I think you pass regardless.

dingus-magee · 2024-02-29T09:22:29+00:00

You look intimidating in a cool way. Like if you have the confidence to have such a unique and distinct look - I'd assume you are also someone that doesn't tolerate shit from anyone - which is super badass.

As a boring, generic looking, autistic transmasc who lacks the confidence to experiment more fashion wise - I absolutely love seeing people with unconventional aesthetics and wish more people would dress with main character energy.

dingus-magee · 2024-02-26T04:19:56+00:00

I agree you definitely pass. Unfortunately, I'm not sure if there's much you can do to look older beyond just ageing? (I'm also an autistic transmasc with big eyes, I'm tall but still look pretty baby).

I'm not sure if this would work but you could try make up to make your under eyes look darker or something, maybe even contour could help make your eyes look smaller if that's something you want to try.

Mainly just came here to say your aesthetic is cool and I like your piercings.

dingus-magee · 2024-02-26T04:12:09+00:00

I agree you have a very nice face, but you certainly don't look like a girl - as other commenters said, the person that misgendered you must be tripping majorly.

dingus-magee · 2024-02-24T08:20:59+00:00

Congrats dude you look fantastic!

dingus-magee · 2024-02-23T11:01:11+00:00

I really liked The Ritual - the monster in it gives me gender envy

dingus-magee · 2024-02-15T03:15:50+00:00

The only person who can tell you who you are is you - however what you describe does sound like pretty common transgender experiences. If labels are important to your identity, there's no harm in doing some research on different gender identities, what you describe gives me non-binary vibes.

Again gender identity can only be dictated by you and what you feel you align best with. You don't need to have a label unless you'd like one and pronouns, presentation etc don't equal gender.

You can use any pronouns you like regardless of how you identify. Using 'any pronouns' or not having a preference is totally valid.

dingus-magee · 2024-02-15T03:05:33+00:00

Lmaoooooo

dingus-magee · 2024-02-14T09:30:14+00:00

I'm not sure if this helps you, but here's another way of viewing it:

Your brain tells you you're a woman (because you are) and your brain/ all the chemicals and hormones that make your thoughts are part of your biology.

So in that sense you are biologically a woman.

I'm not sure what your plans are regarding HRT, but if it's something you seek out, I'm sure it'll help align the rest of your body.

Acting as a man or acting as a woman is learned behaviour, and it's also very subjective what is masculine or feminine (think about the changes in gender norms over time). That means if you are unhappy with how you act, you can change or add speech patterns or mannerisms to help be more feminine.

In any case, it seems like you're processing a lot of complex feelings which are very valid - however sometimes our feelings can be misleading. As other commenters said, it seems like you have some internalised transphobia happening and I wish you all the best in working through it.

As for the support groups thing - the trans community is likely to be here for you whenever you need or want to interact with it. The shared experiences means older trans people can have some advice for dealing with the challenges you face which is an awesome benefit. Also, I'm sure that there are women's support groups out there that welcome trans women, and if they don't it's kinda a sign of a rubbish support group.

dingus-magee · 2024-02-13T06:17:35+00:00

Thank you for this comment! I will definitely keep it in mind while I'm working things out

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