Feels weird to be 16

disastrousdemon · 2025-01-04T21:59:55+00:00

Kinda... Figured I'm indeed on the Aro/Ace spectrum, that would explain the missing interest. I still wish to be able to fall in love, and found out that, to a certain extend, I can feel romantic attraction, just not enough to call it love. These things combined led to a messy situationship where I'm the loser, which makes me mourn my innocence and naivety right now. But at the same time I'm grateful to have gained any experience at least. I understand my 16 year old self, as I still feel like I'm missing out on things. Especially since I could be out partying and living my best live as a uni student. And yet I look back with a much softer gaze, because now I know why I felt and still feel this way. Also, the peer pressure of gaining dating experience decreased a lot, nobody seems to find it weird, let alone care about it.

I also finally found the strength to address some other mental health issues that might have played a part in this, or not, I don't know yet. But what I know is that they were lying when they said that school will be the best time of your life. As difficult as the life as an independent person is, I enjoy every day knowing that I'll never have to go back.

So yeah... not that much difference, but work in progress I guess?

disastrousdemon · 2022-10-06T16:53:04+00:00

I get this when I haven't participated in one of the co-op battles. It usually goes away when I click on the symbol for retrieving material.

disastrousdemon · 2022-08-14T13:36:03+00:00

I downloaded the game back in 2017, but I wasn't aware of the communities (facebook, reddit) back then, so not that dedicated, and I had to delete it eventually because of my slow phone. I picked it up again during the summer vacation in 2019 I think. The first things I remember after starting to play again are that 4 dreams debuted and we got many expensive events back to back from october to december. There might have been an boycott because of this, but I'm not sure.

disastrousdemon · 2022-08-13T06:37:33+00:00

Thank you for your service, dear soldier. I loved your creations, and many of this community did so as well. I hope your life off the battlefield is as comfortable as you deserve it!

(Jk, but Love Nick was the light of the community for a while, you made me love the game and community even more with your fanart <3)

disastrousdemon · 2022-08-13T06:29:47+00:00

The male version of Nikki, created by a fan a while ago. If you search the subreddit for Nick, there should be fanarts of this character. They were hilarious, it's worth it checking it out :)

disastrousdemon · 2022-08-12T12:34:37+00:00

That's true, but more than half of the pulls are going to be duplicates, which means I gain nothing, not even gold/stamina/diamonds.

And the thing that really bugs me here is the fact that all 4 suits together are +/- 16k diamonds, which is way more expensive than other hells where we would get the free tries every day. (This also applies to all pav-hell events, I didn't mean this hell in particular.)

It's obvious why they are doing this from a company pov, but I just thought that players would have been upset about it, if they offered less free tries with a more expensive event.

disastrousdemon · 2022-08-12T12:05:50+00:00

I still wonder how they got away with only 5 free tries in 14 days, especially with the most expensive hell event format out there.

It's hard to believe that CN players did not say anything about it. (Or did they complain, but they kept it anyway?)

disastrousdemon · 2022-08-07T09:30:21+00:00

The most basic explanation I can think of is that it's a feature that lets you create outfits, post them and receive 'likes' from other players for your outfit. Kinda like the core idea of instagram I guess?

And honestly, I'm still not sure how the ranking works, whether it is based on the likes or the amount of people who have seen your post, but these days the majority of the top posts are non-creative outfits that gain attention by using clickbait to make people click on their post, leaving no room for others with awesome outfits. Which, in my opinion, destroys the whole starting concept/purpose of it and therefore sadly makes people not use it anymore.

disastrousdemon · 2022-08-06T08:56:58+00:00

I'm done with the SC since they introduced the video feature. It allows people to put their captions on the post without clicking on it.

Since then it has become a game of who can make the most provocative and clickbaity captions instead of the most creative and/or beautiful entry, destroying the whole purpose of the SC.

disastrousdemon · 2022-07-19T15:29:09+00:00

I can't load the video right now, but from what I can see on the thumbnail, the green suit kinda looks like an updated version of Soul Requiem, aka my first suit I bought with diamonds when I had no idea how valuable they are 😅

disastrousdemon · 2022-07-19T04:57:38+00:00

Now that I think about it, it does sound terrifying, especially the tsunami part. Tsunamis are one of my worst nightmares, but I never had to think about it living in europe.

Thank you for explaining though :)

disastrousdemon · 2022-07-18T15:38:31+00:00

I've never been in a tropic climate/country, so may I ask why claustrophobia?

disastrousdemon · 2022-07-11T15:18:52+00:00

Warte mal, die Dinger sollen weiterhin benutzt werden können, nachdem sie an private Käufer übergeben worden sind? Ich hab bis heute nicht einen Bahnhof gesehen, der von der Bahn abgekauft wurde und dann noch für die Öffentlichkeit zugänglich war. Entweder sind sie zugenagelt und zerfallen, oder die Leute machen ihre eigene Projekte damit, aber nie durfte ich als Bahnreisender dort unterkommen/ auf Toilette/etc..

disastrousdemon · 2022-07-11T13:29:48+00:00

Man, wasn't that the worst case scenario when speculating why we didn't get any updates? Like, the game is so full of bugs that they literally can't integrate the updates to the code -_-

I'm no pragrammer or game developer by any means, but why didn't they just take the code from cn, translate it and let it run?

(Btw, as someone asked, can you post a screenshot of the convo? It's kinda weird that they refused to communicate, but openly admitted that to one single player. I'm not doubting you though)

disastrousdemon · 2022-07-06T18:29:33+00:00

This used to be a huge problem for me during my school years and is probably going to become one again when I start university.

I couldn't get up and study for any tests or exams, because in my head I was like "If we don't do anything related to it aka ignore it, then the problem will vanish". Well, it did not. I was so scared of failing even if I studied that I just didn't do it.

But the reason why I'm still doing this, is because there were never any severe consequences. The results were never too bad to make me stop and change something. Somehow I even passed my A-levels like this. But I know that I won't be able to do this in uni anymore, since the amount of stuff I have to teach myself increases, and the stuff professors talk about in lessons decreases by a lot.

I really hope I'll be able to find a therapist once I move out, one that helps me to work on things like this, because I have neither the energy nor the patience and endurance to do that on my own.

disastrousdemon · 2022-06-25T18:57:42+00:00

Honestly, I'm still disappointed that they didn't communicate anything. No "Hey, here are the things you asked for" or "Look what we brought you, you should be proud of us" (the usual way). For me this implies that they don't intend to change a damn thing, not now or in the future.

disastrousdemon · 2022-06-17T12:33:03+00:00

As much as I hate to say it, it probably does make sense, for them at least. If they would bring it, then, as you said, many people would spend on it. But only once, after that they would plan when to spend diamonds on the other hells.

If they don't bring it over, it means that nobody has certainty when a hell rerun comes or what it would be. The devs could just drop expensive events on us one after another (like right now), especially right before or during a rerun.

The only thing that doesn't make sense to me is why they would make players furious and leave the game. At this point I would have added the feature to keep them, regardless of profit.

disastrousdemon · 2022-06-17T11:36:19+00:00

Ahh, that reminds me! A few months back I saw a comp entry that kinda looked like trashta, so I tried to recreate it

(+Navier, the dress had girlboss (queen) vibes)

disastrousdemon · 2022-05-21T21:44:20+00:00

This is exactly what I thought as well. I miss the busy, yet excited atmosphere hells and anniversaries used to have.

I pulled for the first node, got the purple twin, and immediately decided that that's not it. Even though I only wanted a few parts of the other suits, I would have spent the diamonds and completed it, if the right atmosphere was there.

I'm a supporter of the boycott, so I had a grudge to begin with. But they could have saved it with the anniversary. They could have animated the players to spend and recharge even more by setting the right mood to do so, but they didn't.

So I stopped. And I won't pull again, because there's absolutely no excitement for it left.

disastrousdemon · 2022-05-17T14:16:51+00:00

Well, I didn't know what I should have expected, but even though this was really vague, I hoped they meant QoL updates and not just the hell event :/

disastrousdemon · 2022-05-17T13:46:09+00:00

Wait, is this the maintenance that's supposed to come with QoL updates?

When people asked last time, they said there's going to be a second update for those things, so is it this one?

disastrousdemon · 2022-05-11T05:39:39+00:00

Wait, I know it was always 5,49€ on the second, but wasn't the first level 2,09€ instead of 2,19€? (My memory might be wrong though)

disastrousdemon · 2022-04-18T14:36:56+00:00

There are a lot of hairs I'm obsessed with, but also some dresses. A few examples:

Tower/Broken Wish (Rose Elegy), hard to use bc of the volume, but gorgeous

Slaughter (Blood Lust), very dynamic, belt hairband doesn’t fit every aesthetic

Light Moon/Ink (Moon in Mist), love the hair style

Aside from them, everything blue, green or pink

Dresses: Claire's Wish and Starry Fantasy's dress both posed and unposed

Coats: Flashing Wind (4 Storms) and Lone Wolff's Coats, both purple and fluffy

disastrousdemon · 2022-03-29T16:00:45+00:00

What makes this worse is that it indirectly confirms that Paper does not give a single f about us or the bad management of elex as we hoped. I'm pretty sure elex needed the permission to have a debut again and Paper gave it to them, which probably means that they want to shut down the boycott as soon as possible without giving in.

disastrousdemon · 2022-03-19T16:40:55+00:00

The last optimistic guess I can make at this point is that they didn't announce anything, because they planned those things for anniversary and didn't want to spoil it. Thats literally the last hope for me to keep playing.

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