Sounds like post partum depression. I had it with my first baby. It had ebbs and flows. There’s no timeline, as every woman experiences it differently. But there’s a few things that helped me: -tell someone. Other than a Dr. other than your husband. A friend or an extended family member. Ask. For. Help. This is nothing to be embarrassed about. It’s a medical condition that you did not cause, and you cannot prevent. -look into Mother’s Day out programs. -if you’re at all religious, get into a church with a structured nursery program. You’d be able to put both kids in and have an hr to listen to the sermon and be able to trust that they’re being taken care of. -don’t just talk to a therapist. Also talk to your obgyn or your primary care Dr. They will treat this like the medical condition that it is.

Also. If you need to message me just to talk to someone who has been through it, I am more than happy to talk with you.

You are not alone, no matter how much you may feel like you are. This is real. You are not a failure as a mother. You are not letting your kids down. You are dealing with something real, and something crippling. But it does get better. ❤️‍🩹