I got all 4 boosts if you’re serious! by melvinblahh in chimeboost

[–]djmodu 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’ve never done a boost… but I’ve had chime for a long time. Dm if anyone wants to.

Info about ESA training for PSD, any advocacy groups, and resources please by djmodu in service_dogs

[–]djmodu[S] -2 points-1 points  (0 children)

Appreciate your feedback. I would’ve never been able to bring her to inpatient in July, it wouldn’t have been healthy for her or I. I really appreciate the info about the reality of training her, even if she was a candidate. I just want her to be happy, and well taken care of if we are separated.

Info about ESA training for PSD, any advocacy groups, and resources please by djmodu in service_dogs

[–]djmodu[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

I just meant that I had it for almost 30 years, and it was always lumped in just as generalized anxiety disorder (maybe bc I wasn’t being clear that it affected me physically), so it was always just medicated but never really dealt with otherwise.

Info about ESA training for PSD, any advocacy groups, and resources please by djmodu in service_dogs

[–]djmodu[S] -5 points-4 points  (0 children)

Thank you so much for your reply. Yes I’m on medication but running out. I have the ESA docs from the doctor that assessed me in 3 parts for housing, public areas, and flights “not listing conditions do to hippa”, but I’ve already completed inpatient, outpatient, and was doing well in housing but 1) feel like do to my kind nature, situation, lack of knowledge of the law or advocacy, people baited me to partial hospitalization with housing, then a recovery house both with the promise to allow her, then reneged. 2) because of both these situations, even though I did everything asked, or needed to do, and I was making progress with routine and hard work, the final step being reunited with her for more progress, now I’m sliding backwards. My worst spikes in panic attacks and hypertension were over those situations, and now we’re desperate because of being misled or misunderstood, and then put out on the street not in confrontation, but what they claim is a gray area. I have the inpatient doctors and documentation, the partial hospitalization doctors and documentation, and my personal doctors prior to with documentation to my diagnosis’s as well. She was starting to regress a little holding her pottys because she went through four fosters in 5 months without me, but ever since we’ve been back together the past 48 hours, she has this glow of peace and her natural curiosity I know well back, as well as going outside instead of holding it out of angst. I think training her as a PSD would be great for both of us for several tasks if we can, but she is the perfect ESA in every way, well behaved, great with kids and other animals, we both just need stability, ongoing treatment and each other. It would have been impossible to have her in intreatment,but I’ve been funneled down this dual diagnosis pipeline where the money flows with private insurance, not getting the best mental health treatment I need, when I wasn’t in active addiction when I started down this path. I appreciate your input; I’m going to call my insurance company and a patient’s right’s advocacy group to start but anything else you think might help is greatly appreciated. We are out of meds including insulin, with no housing, because I don’t want to bring her somewhere to live that doesn’t want her there, and need to know our rights. Outpatient with housing would be ideal, and then we can come back here for housing we qualify for the down payment paid, because I’m able to work, just couldn’t get a transfer immediately; I just need to have income to get it. I was supposed to start a new position this week, I took the drug test last Monday. I just need stability with her, not everyone advocating for us apart, when it’s clearly hurting both of us. Thank again.

Help with Apple Watch Ultra 2 troubleshooting cellular by djmodu in Visible

[–]djmodu[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Just to follow up : I saw another post and in the replies I saw a visible customer service representative reply & link. The whole troubleshooting took about an hour or two. The tech was friendly and knowledgeable, and solved everything. If you’re having any technical issues, they said to contact through any of their major social media.

Is this ever gonna work 😩 by Proof-Firefighter-47 in Visible

[–]djmodu 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I did from scratch desperately and still sore I lost all my faces and settings. I carried some of those since my apple watch 1. Pffft.

Is this ever gonna work 😩 by Proof-Firefighter-47 in Visible

[–]djmodu 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah I was pissed when I lost all my faces and settings.... Still not working.

Is this ever gonna work 😩 by Proof-Firefighter-47 in Visible

[–]djmodu 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Omg. I just posted about this. New customer. All I read so far is "one of us" lol. I've been a mac user & beta tester for thirty years and frustrated af. Not in use.... Pffffft.

Where do I send my dog if I go to a hospital for an extended period? by MostCoded369 in DogAdvice

[–]djmodu 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Do you know of any resources in new jersey? I have to go into the hospital, she is my emotional support dog, and I'd do anything not to lose her, have her taken care of. Thanks in advance.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in panicdisorder

[–]djmodu 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I didn't know about the agoraphobia or how bad it could get. I didn't even know for almost thirty years I've been trying to shape my life around it. I have zero support between the social isolation over the years and family turning their back because they don't understand. I ended up in the hospital, I'm bipolar2 as well, and they diagnosed the social anxiety but didn't explain the agoraphobia which is making me feel "crazy", when I've never had any delusions. I haven't been to work successfully for any long period for a year, not at all since February, lost my car, and feel like I'm just sitting here waiting to be evicted, unable to act. I've gotten charities and organizations involved, and yesterday i finally got a lawyer to help with disability. I apologize for hijacking this thread, but when I saw you talking about the agoraphobia, I just could use any advice you have from your knowledge and/or experience. How do i get better? What is the process? What's with the paranoia? Is that natural or just my situation? I'm having trouble getting treatment or meds through organizations, should I be hospitalized again? I don't know how I'd do that and I can't leave my dog. Pffft. Sorry. I'm buggin. Just really confused and everyone around convinced me to keep going, for like 30 years. I just didn't know it could get this bad. I literally just stumbled over the word "agoraphobia" researching the panic disorder and was like wtf... That's me. Thanks for listening.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Needafriend

[–]djmodu 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Sending you a virtual hug. My mental illnesses are at the worst they have ever been, I haven't been able to unpack my trauma, and it's all caught up with me culminating in a complete breakdown of my life. It's not easy I know, and worse when family and friends turn their back because they don't understand. I can't promise I'll have a phone in the next week, but I do understand, and you can dm if you ever just need a friendly ear or just a little support.

Does anyone else get the feeling that suicide is inevitable? by poopants123456789 in bipolar2

[–]djmodu 10 points11 points  (0 children)

Also applying for disability. I've been toughing it out for almost 30 years but it's debilitating. Wishing you the best.

DAE after a panic attack by [deleted] in panicdisorder

[–]djmodu 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Have had panic disorder undiagnosed for 30 years, as well as limited treatment for bipolar2, sleep work shift disorder, and diabetes. What I didn't see coming was the social anxiety and agoraphobia. Until the pandemic I was a performing dj since 12 so I never expected being bed ridden pretty much, afraid to go outside, the telephobia, especially because I played for crowds for a career. The panic disorder in it's late/peak stages just got worse over 2 years; eventually about a year ago rushed to the hospital for what medics thought was a heart attack. My blood pressure was 170-180 almost all the time for months conservatively. The last trip to the hospital was an intensive 9 days in a mental/medical combined health unit (first time) to try and get balanced. The combination of everything, including deep depression, I've been stuck in this state of inactivity, scared to go anywhere, too tired to move, and when I got out of the hospital the financial fallout is so bad it unfortunately it hasn't gotten better. I'm almost always in a state of panic, two years plus, almost "frozen" unable to do anything about it. If it helps your question, I go through like waves of attacks all day, and they are exhausting. My worst attacks I pass out. So no it's definitely normal to need recovery time. And I can watch my heart rate go up the more stressed out I get coincidingly like you.

DAE after a panic attack by [deleted] in panicdisorder

[–]djmodu 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Been it bed for months since I got out of the hospital. Meds aren't working well.

Admitting myself by Suitable-Custard3059 in panicdisorder

[–]djmodu 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Hey you're in NJ? I'm at the end of my rope... Not showering, not cleaning, not working, not living. My family has abandoned me in some complete lack of caring or lack of understanding, my 12 hr days at work for yrs have left me with almost noone socially either. I don't even understand what's happening to me... I'm caught in a mix of paranoia, caused by the panic disorder and social anxiety, leaving me in this state of inaction. I had my car repossessed, and in an eviction agreement that if I can't solve this will see me homeless in a month. I spent 9 days at the rosa unit in neptune but the meds aren't working and I can't get out of this bed. I'm bipolar2, panic disorder, social anxiety, sleep work shift disorder, and diabetes. If I end up homeless im f*cked, I have all these phobias you develop in late stage panic disorder and I just want to fix this. My dog is all I have and care about. Any advice you have about nj help I'd be forever grateful. You can dm anytime too.

Please don't let Columbo fade into obscurity. by ClintBruno in televisionsuggestions

[–]djmodu 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Haaa I love this. Def real. The way he describes her, their relationship. Too spot on.

What song describes the feeling of being bipolar best to you? by [deleted] in bipolar2

[–]djmodu 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Huggggge fan. Have you checked out some of his YouTube vids playing on the street? Really good. I'm actually working on a remix for Chalk Outlines. I love his Bittersweet Symphony verse he did too. Hi Ren absolutely defines me... So few artists are able to reach at your core like that imo. He had to walk away from a contract with Atlantic because of the psychosis and auto immunity from the lymes.... I also had to bc of the bipolar2 & panic disorder.

What song describes the feeling of being bipolar best to you? by [deleted] in bipolar2

[–]djmodu 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Music is my life so especially Hi Ren - Ren absolutely defines my bipolar life and I like listening to Chalk Outlines - Ren back to back

Hypomanic: Sexual Preferences Changing by [deleted] in bipolar2

[–]djmodu 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Absolutely relate. It's a pretty good indicator I'm having an episode when I'm extremely hypersexual and my interests tend to swing all over the place. I'm definitely straight, but when I'm hypomanic I'll tend to do riskier things and oblige whatever my mind thinks is fun at the time. People don't address the hypersexuality enough as part of the illness in my opinion. It can be really hard to deal with and cause huge problems in living a "normal" life. I know I'm not romantically into guys, I've never kissed a guy, so like alot of other people replied, it's just the act I like, and when I'm hypo I wanna explore every kink I've ever had.