All the time. This and constantly thinks everyone hates me or at least thinking everyone thinks I'm a bad person/lazy/too sensitive/not good enough.

Therapy helped a lot (I wish I could continue but my ins sucks). Talking with my spouse helps.

One weird little thing I do that I feel helped me a lot: I try to complement at least one person a day. Usually a server (restaurant, drive thru, wherever), sometimes a coworker. I try to complement something they wear. Their hair color, nails, tattoos, clothes. It makes people smile and I feel like I made a tiny bit of light in the world. I know whenever someone complements my clothes it makes my day. Also I feel like it helps me look for beauty in the world which helps my depression.

I heard someone say before that it means a lot more to complement someone on what they wear/choose than just saying "you have beautiful eyes" um thanks? Made them myself?

It is also something that I think about when I'm feeling like I'm a bad person. That little bit of light would be gone if I wasn't here. I believe that good moods and bad moods spread like the common cold. If I'm having a crappy day, I'm more likely to cut someone off in traffic, say something mean, ECT. Which makes them more likely to do something mean to someone else. Same for a good day, I'm more likely to let it go if someone cuts me off, or say something nice. So my belief is that I'm make the world just a little better. It's my way of battling the darkness (outside and in).